Last week the weather was gorgeous. I was so ready to feel the warmth of the sunshine and say hello to spring. The boys and I took advantage of the beautiful days and spent as much time outside as we could. We went on walks, built sandcastles, and even had a picnic. It was great. I was feeling excited for spring and anticipating the fun of summer…then I woke up to Thursday. It seemed like all at once my sunshiny-bliss came crashing down. Two sick kids (one that already doesn’t sleep at night anyway) and a sick mama. Yuck.
I usually feel like I have a pretty good perspective on sickness and sleepless nights and I really don’t like to complain on my blog. I know there could be much worse things. I can be thankful for the fact that my kids are here for me to hold and comfort. I can be thankful for doctors and medicine that is so readily available. I know that the sickness and sleeplessness soon will pass. And after fighting cancer with our daughter, I can even be thankful for a little sickness that is treatable and will go away after a few days of antibiotics. We are blessed.
I know all of those things in my head and it is easy for me to type those words out, but when I was stuck inside for several days with two grouchy sick boys and I was not feeling well myself, I could tell I was losing perspective by the things I said and the way I acted. The words that I just typed didn’t match the condition of my heart. Just ask my husband. He would tell you that my perspective went out the door…and it went out fast. I quickly started feeling sorry for myself and even found other things to add to my list of complaints. I found myself having to seek forgiveness and focus on Truth to reclaim perspective…and it took me a couple days to even figure that out.
I recently started reading Growing Grateful Kids by Susie Larson. It is so good and challenging to me as a mom…especially after these last few days with my boys. Susie’s words couldn’t have come at a better time:
Every mother, at some point or another, feels overwhelmed, out numbered, and insufficient to meet the needs before her. In ourselves, we aren’t enough for the lofty task of motherhood. Jesus understands our predicaments. His disciples faced impossible situations regularly. But it’s in our places of desperate need that Jesus makes Himself known. When our strength is unequal to the task, we see the strength of God come to bear in our lives. And when what we hold in our hand falls short of the need before us, we can keep perspective because we have a place to go with our need. We have a God who makes up where we lack. We have an engaged Father who lovingly provides for us. We have reason to be thankful (p28).
That was totally me. I was feeling overwhelmed, out numbered, and insufficient to take care of my boys…and myself. I felt like I didn’t have the strength to do it. And I didn’t. But instead of relying on the strength of my God to fill in my insufficiencies, I just tried to survive on my own and threw myself one big pity party along the way. Nice. You would think I would know better.
And as my boys are getting older and Levi starts mimicking so many of the things I say and do, I am realizing more and more the ugliness in my heart that I don’t want him to imitate. Susie says,
Cultivating a heart of gratitude in our children is impossible unless we ourselves are grateful. We can’t impart something we do not possess. Always as moms, first and foremost, we have to keep close watch on our own attitude, which is fueled by our perspective.
In good seasons and in difficult ones, we are under God’s care, and he has promised to meet our needs. Therefore, we are called to give thanks (p30).
My attitude at the end of last week was definitely fueled by my perspective…and it wasn’t a perspective full of God’s truth. I want to cultivate a heart of gratitude in the lives of my children and I know that needs to start right here with my own heart.
The last few days were definitely not my most shining moments as a wife or mother. But I am thankful for these difficult days as a mom (I can say that now, right?) because I know God is using my kids to mold me into a woman after His own heart. There is lots of work to be done in this heart of mine.
This lesson on gratitude is one I have learned before, but one that I obviously needed to be reminded of…and will probably need to be reminded of again and again. I am praying that next time I sense my perspective going out the door that I remember to first go to my loving Heavenly Father with my needs and allow Him to make up for my many, many insufficiencies. And that I would be a mama who models a truly grateful heart to my children.
Give thanks in all circumstances; for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus for you.
1 Thessalonians 5:18
Creole Wisdom - Love all your creative, fun ideas Jess. I don’t have any to add, but had to comment anyway 🙂 I love this time of year, it’s such a great reminder of what Jesus Christ has done for the world.
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Megan - Easter Smore!? Why have I never thought of that before! Great idea
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Altax - Lovely cute kids and awesome stuffs. Keep going!!!
Easter Activities
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Aimee - Really cute. I love the Easter Smores.
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Lori - Love your ideas! And I got a huge smile on my face remembering a certain senior trip with PEEPS involved! ;o) I was planning on doing the resurrection bread with Riley too!
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Beth Ann - Here is a cute free printable for you – found via pinterest. I have the green one framed in our kitchen window! 🙂
http://www.stayathomeartist.com/2011/03/free-easter-butterfly-printable.html
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Marie - oved all those ideas…thanks for sharing. We had our kids make Resurrection Gardens. It turned out to be a super fun craft and a great reminder of what Easter is really about. You can see it here: http://marievilla.blogspot.com/2012/03/resurrection-garden-to-celebrate-easter.html
I would definitely recommend doing it with kids. They loved it.
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MICHELE - we are so doing the smore thing! we also like to make Resurrection cookies the details are in this post: http://www.keethlerstory.blogspot.com/2011/04/resurrection-cookies_06.html I think it is a fun way to incorporate the story into food as well. 🙂
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Anonymous - When our kids hunt for their Easter Eggs we hide at least one empty egg for each child. When they find the empty egg they have to come to us and tell us why empty is the best thing. We talk about the empty tomb and what that means for us and then they trade the empty egg for their “big” surprise. It is usually something special. That is what we do instead of easter baskets. Now that we have been doing it for a couple of years they really look forward to that empty egg. At first it threw them a bit until they realized why we celebrate something being empty!
Katie T.
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Mory - The Easter Mountain link did not work…..Love the other ideas!
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Micah - Hi Jess!! I haven’t “checked in” in so long! Life has been so busy lately! I just wanted to see how your boys were growing. They are just precious. Griffin looks so much like his big sis to me – love that :).
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km - What a NEAT and MEANINGFUL list of EASTER FUN!!! Thanks especially for the BOOK recommendation… it sounds fantastic and I’m putting it on my to read list.
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onlymehere - You have some wonderful ideas here. I’m definitely going to use the reserrection eggs and maybe even make a few peep smores! Thanks for the fun ideas.
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Melissa Davis - Great ideas…our kids did the resurrection eggs at school and I think it is a great way for them to focus on the real meaning of Easter. Love your blog!
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Lori - We made the Peep s’mores for our cousin Easter party and they were a huge hit! I stocked my cart with a rainbow of colorful Peeps today since they were on sale. We did all the sweet resurrection activities as well, and the resurrection cookie making activity really made an impact on my girls. Though the cookies weren’t their favorites, so I think I’ll try the rolls you posted next year. Now following you on Pinterest, too!
Blessings on your day!
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