Being a parent is such a privilege. I can’t wait to be a mama again.
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Β The worst part about today…
having to face Cora’s hospital again
the nervousness
the waiting and waiting
The best part about today…
still a boy!
baby brother is healthy {so relieved}
showing Levi pictures of his baby brother
I had my last sonogram and appointment with the specialist today. I am approaching 32 weeks already! The nerves always start to kick in a little as we face these appointments with the specialist. I think it is not because we really having anything to worry about. But more because we are reminded of why we are having to see a specialist in the first place…our baby girl died of cancer.Β
Thankfully, everything looked great today. They checked Baby Brother’s adrenal glands, just like they did with Levi. They looked good. And my placenta previa corrected itself. Yay for no c-section! They said our little guy is about 4 pounds 9 ounces right now and still on schedule. He has at least a little bit of hair and I’m in love with him already.
I miss the days of blissfully going through a pregnancy without any cares. I never thought about specialists, or cancer, or the “what ifs” when I was pregnant with Cora. My biggest worries were getting the nursery ready on time and making sure I had all the right baby gear. But I also took a lot for granted back then. I now have a different perspective. Today I am thankful for each healthy doctor visit. I am thankful for each time the doctor gives us good news. I am thankful for every kick I feel from this precious life inside of me. And I am thankful for each day the Lord gives me with my children…even these days before I get to meet my little guy.
Being a parent is such a privilege. I can’t wait to be a mama again. What do you think of our new hairdo’s?
Yesterday Levi and I had a little mama/son date to get our hair cut.
Don’t worry if you can’t really see the difference on me.
No Locks of Love this time…I just got a trim.
But I reluctantly decided it was time for Levi to have a haircut too.
It was time to say goodbye to those sweet baby curls…
or at least his daddy thought it was time.
Levi was very unsure about the whole thing.
He didn’t like the cape.
He had to have one arm out at all times.
My friend Aimee was so sweet with him.
{She is the best!}
And her little girl stayed close and fed him fruit snacks.
It did the trick for a while.
He sat perfectly still.
He was completely quiet.
And there was no sign of the smile that usually covers his face.
Very unlike him.
And just before it was time to cut the back and say goodbye to his sweet baby curls…
his big pouty lip came out and he cried and cried and cried.
I had to hold him for the rest of the haircut.
And then he sat on my lap for almost my entire haircut.
He sat so still and barely made a noise.
The haircut must have been as traumatic for him as it was for me to say goodbye to those curls!
He recovered quickly though once we left.
Here he is last night playing with his new big boy haircut.
He is seeming more and more like a BIG brother everyday.
{I had to keep those little sweet baby curls for his baby book…I just couldn’t part with them!}
It was a long weekend.Β Mr. Levi kept me on my toes while his daddy put in lots of hours on the farm. Usually corn harvest isn’t until the beginning of September, but it is so dry this year that they are having to salvage the corn crop by bailing and cutting it for silage (which they use for cattle feed). Bummer. I guess this year we can be really thankful for crop insurance. Β
And it is still hot. Really, really hot. We are really thankful for air conditioning too. π
Friday morning when Levi woke up I decided that maybe since his sheets were turning brown from dirt it was time to wash them (boys are so dirty). I had him throw his favorite blanket into the washing machine too. He thought that was a great idea until he saw that it was getting covered in water. He cried and cried for his “baa-baa”. See his poor tear stained eyes?
Β It took him quite a while and a little distraction before he recovered. I had no idea it would be so traumatic. I guess I will secretly wash his blanket next time.
We tried to keep ourselves busy inside that afternoon because it was too hot to play outside. Levi decided he was going to entertain his mom by trying to pick up and eat his bread without any hands. Silly boy.
We got tired of being cooped up inside, so we took a trip to the farm to ride with daddy. Unfortunately when we got there they had a truck breakdown, so we couldn’t ride along. Levi made sure to check out all the tractors anyway. He loves to be on the farm and climb in the tractors even if they are not moving.
He even thinks he is getting big enough to climb on everything himself. He was trying so hard to climb up that ladder, but his little chubby legs couldn’t quite make it.
And he still loves to ride the four wheeler with his dad and check on all the cows.
Β Levi stays right by his daddy’s side and wants to do everything that he does.
Β He will only stop for important things…like emptying the rocks out of his shoes.
The truck got fixed and the guys headed back to the field. Levi fed the cows before we left. He was trying to be so brave and put grass in the bunk, but when he got too close he threw it instead and ran away.
Β At home the next morning Levi was still taking care of his cows (he likes to give them kisses)…
Β and driving his tractors. Already such a little farmer.
Saturday we went back to the farm and this time Levi got his tractor ride.
In fact he got to stay and ride by himself for two whole hours. He was in heaven and I got to go to the grocery store all by myself. A treat for both of us.
These busy times on the farm can be wearing, but I am so thankful for the time that Levi gets to spend with his daddy. I know that he will learn so much from Joel during these times spent riding together…even while they are working.Β
Last week Joel and I took Levi to the park. I really wanted to try to get a few 18 month pictures. Joel came along to make Levi smile for me…and of course because we like his company too. But instead of looking at his mama and smiling, Levi ran and ran and ran…
and played and played and played…
and gave his mama “the look” when she pointed the camera at him.
I even tried to do one quick family photo and this is as close as we got. It was way too stressful for this little man to stop playing and take a picture with his mama and daddy. So I gave up.
And we just let Levi play instead. These pictures do a much better job of capturing Levi at 18 months anyway. He is constantly on the go.
And constantly performing. We were singing “Read your Bible…
pray every day…
and you’ll grow, grow, grow.”
While an 18 month old sure can wear a pregnant mama out, I am loving this age.
I love watching Levi’s little personality grow.
He is constantly making me laugh…just like his daddy does.
And he is a daily reminder to me of the blessing of life and God’s faithfulness to our family.
This is Levi at 18 months {just so his mama doesn’t forget}:
*You are a BIG boy and very heavy for me to carry around. Good thing you love to walk. Your official stats are 26 pounds and 2 feet 9 inches tall.
*You babble constantly and are saying so many words. My favorites are ma-ma {of course},Β wide (ride),Β bon mow (lawn mower), ba-be (baby), mil (milk), du-see (Lucy, our dog), nay-new (thank you), duck (stuck) and wok-wok (rock, rock). You are starting to say people’s names too. It is so cute. And you even say “Joel” just like mama says it and then laugh. So funny.
*When you say goodbye to me you yell “bye-bye” and blow me a kiss or lots of kisses. Love it.
*You love to help your mama. You like to put away the silverware when I empty the dishwasher, throw trash away for me, walk down the driveway with me to get the mail, pick up toys, vacuum and sweep.
*You would stay outside all day if you could…even in the crazy heat we have been having this summer. You like to play in your sandbox, push your four wheeler, swing, play in the water, and collect rocks and sticks.
*You love wrestling with your daddy. You run and jump on him and laugh and laugh and laugh.
*You love to “wide” with daddy. He always gives you a ride in his truck up and down the driveway when he gets home from work. And if you get to ride on his four wheeler or in one of his tractors you think it is the best day ever.
*Actually you love doing ANYTHING with your daddy. π
*You are a major performer and love it when people laugh at you. You like to show people how you know all the different parts of your body, your “fast feet”, give people “the look”, dance, give high fives and fist bumps, and sing songs.
*You are such a good sleeper at night and usually take a long afternoon nap. You like to rock-rock, read books, and sing songs before bed. It is one of my favorite parts of the day. Hopefully your brother gets your sleeping skills!
*And speaking of brothers…you are going to be a BIG brother in about two months. So hard to believe. You are a sweet, sweet boy. It is such a privilege to be your mama and spend my days with you. I can’t wait to see you as a big brother!
![]() The winner of A Place of Quiet Rest is…
Arianne
Congratulations Arianne! Send me your email address and I will get your book in the mail.
I keep forgetting to mention that Levi’s room was featured on The Good Stuff Guide last week.
You can check out the post here.
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Just a reminder…
If you haven’t checked out the Keeper of My Heart giveaway, you should. The giveaway ends this Thursday. Lots of great stuff you can win. And a sweet little boy to help bring home. * * * * * * * * *
Hope you are having a great start to the week.
Baby Brother’s room is getting painted tomorrow.
Yay for getting lots of things done!
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Kat - He’s a lucky little dude to be born into such a wonderful family!
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Meghan - Ah, that is so wonderful to hear. I am so excited for you guys!
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Judy - You’re a great Momma!! Praise the Lord for a great doctor’s visit today! I’m continuing to pray for peace in your hearts and a healthy baby boy!!!
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Kristin - Yay for healthy doctor visits, and for sweet baby boys!
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Stef - SO glad baby looks healthy! I’ve been praying for you, Jess.
I recently had my 3rd miscarriage {after having 3 healthy kids pretty close in age} and God has taught me a lot through it all, but mostly, He’s taught me that His path is best and not to take any miracle as an everyday “thing” – every child is in fact a miracle and a blessing.
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Givinya De Elba - I too was so relaxed in my first pregnancy. Now I’d have a history of pre-eclampsia and placenta praevia (that didn’t correct itself!) to muddle with my thoughts 24/7. I understand.
I am so glad that your baby is doing well, and I pray that your last weeks before he is born are filled with bliss as you relax after hearing such good news today!
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Christina - I was wondering…. when you had ultrasounds with Cora….did they see any problems then? {I’m thinking maybe they weren’t checking for anything specific with her ultrasounds}.
{The only reason I ask is because they were checking Levi’s and the new baby’s adrenal glands.}
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Rachel - Praise God for continued good news! Thank you for encouraging me and reminding me how blessed I am to be a Mom.
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Meggie - Yay! Praise the Lord for good news! I had a normal, healthy pregnancy with my first little man and so far this one is the same. I’ll be 33 weeks tomorrow so we’re right there together! This time I am a little more anxious as I wait to meet our second baby boy. I’ll be praying for you too as we get closer and closer to adding another member to our families. =) selphpartyof3.blogspot.com
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Bethany - Praise God, for your healthy boy! That picture of Levi is so sweet. He seems like an incredibly smart little man.
Your reminders to never take things for granted are a blessing. Sometimes it’s easy to get caught up in the daily and other days I’ll never forget just how huge a privilege it is to be called Mommy.
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Nancy - Praying for you guys during this next journey!! So thankful that your baby boy is ok! Yay for no C-section!
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EricaG - Every good report is treasured! I’m glad all is well.
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The Schilling's from Cimarron - Jess,
So glad to hear your appointment went great…. I had just said a prayer for you and the baby Tues. night and prayed especially for Cora to watch over you as you are getting closer to the big day of meeting this baby boy! Sure do miss you guys and hope you continue to feel great through the last 8 weeks π Stay cool and give your boys a squeeze from me!
love always,
Amie π
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Michelle - This is wonderful news! Can’t wait to “meet” him. He’ll be perfect. π
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Mindy Harris - your heart is so beautiful.
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Miss G - Great post, Jess. I think of you often as my little guy is just a little younger than Levi. We have hit that always wanting to go outside stage that you’ve talked about and it helps me to think that there’s someone else who has to comfort and distract her son when we stay inside.
Also, I have found that having my quiet time right after I put him down for his morning nap is working great! Thank you so much for the 30 day challenge.
Kelly
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Melissa Joy - This post blessed my heart. Thank you, Jess.
I am expecting my second little boy too; my boys will be 3 1/2 years apart. I also have seven children in heaven. Like you, only my first pregnancy was carefree and whimsical. I miss some aspects of that greatly, yet the perspective you mention is such a gift to me as well! I take nothing for granted, and as I sit here reading about Levi and his Baby Brother, my own baby boy is kicking away in my womb which has me in joyful tears.
God’s ways are not our ways: blessed be the name of the Lord.
Thank you for constantly sharing your sweet perspective and beautiful family with us.
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Marla Taviano - My friend and I were JUST talking about this (and you) last night. She lost a baby girl, had a healthy baby boy a year later, and is 16 weeks pregnant now. She loves and trusts Jesus but is still so anxious. There’s no such thing as carefree after you’ve lost a child, huh. Praying for both of you–that God fills your heart so, so full of his love and peace. Hooray for a wonderful report!!
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Kristin - still a boy! love it π i can’t wait to see the little man in pictures!!
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Jody - Yea!! I can’t wait to find out little brother’s name!!
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nichole - praising with you:)
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Carpenter's - I understand that feeling of high and low! But I LOVE LOVE the fact that you know being a mommy is an honor! I am excited for you!
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Jennifer - Oh Katie. You have such a beautiful way with words, they give such a wonderful glimpse into your precious heart! Prayers of thanksgiving for a good visit are certainly in store! Praise be to God!
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Jane In The Jungle - Amen….we are blessed with each and every one….especially the ones we’ll have to wait awhile to hold again.
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Anonymous - I’m glad it went well for you.
Carley
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