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He would go everywhere with his dad if he could. And I’m pretty sure he thinks that his presence is crucial to the operation of the farm. He was so excited this morning when daddy called and asked if he wanted to come plant soy beans with him. He even got to bring his lunch and eat in the tractor with daddy. Tractors make really good babysitters, you know. If only I could permanently park one in my yard…I might get a lot more done around here. 🙂

I am so thankful for the time Levi gets to spend with his daddy. I know they are creating memories together that he will never forget…and I know the time they spend together with play a huge part in shaping his character as a young man. My boys have a great role model. And a daddy who loves them so much. They’ve got it good. I’ve got it good too. A husband who calls and asks if his son can come work with him. A husband who loves spending time with his sons. I am so thankful for him.

Happy Friday!

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  • Sarah Crosby - so incredibly cute! levi is walking with such pride. pride that can only come from great parents building him and encouraging him the way yall seem to.

    we have a 6 month old and it warms my heart to see my son and husband together. to me there is nothing sweeter.ReplyCancel

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  • Auntie EM - It is so important for sons to have good roll models and a good father is the very best kind of roll model. My two-year-old grandson and my son are so in love with each other and you can see it in the way they play together. I think being daddy’s little shadow is just so darn cute. Your husband to be a really good father and husband. I compliment both of you for being such good parents and raising another generation of good people.ReplyCancel

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  • Mum2twopreciousgifts - My Ethan, aged 5, looked at the pic and said WOW!! MUM LOOK AT THAT AMAZING TRACTOR. That is what growing up in a City does. It makes tractors exciting. Lucky Levi. M xReplyCancel

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  • Selena - Heart-warming… I know how Levi felt in this picture; I remember those days growing up so well. It makes me so proud for him, and for Joel, too.

    As an adult, I see farmers planting, and I think to myself, “wow… what faith they have in our God, as they plant something in His Earth, and wait for it to grow, all the time praying for rain, and trusting that He will answer.”

    Levi is learning more than we can imagine as he shadows his daddy. Great picture… thanks for sharing! It’s precious… 🙂ReplyCancel

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  • Jenny - I also live on a farm- my parent’s farm in Oregon. My husband is working for them right now and has been for the past couple years. This is not where we thought we would be at this point (my hubby has a Masters in Engineering) but we are so happy and feel so blessed/lucky to be on the farm. My two year old LOVES helping Papa and Dada on the farm and I have similar photos of him next to the big tractors planting corn 🙂 My second boy is due any day now. It will be fun to see if he enjoys farm life as much as his big brother!ReplyCancel

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  • Sara - This is beyond sweet! My little boy LOVES to help his Daddy as well….with basically anything my husband will let him! I love see them together doing “man things” as they call it!ReplyCancel

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  • Carolyn Martin - I think you should email this picture to John Deere’s headquarters. It should be on a billboard or something, it speaks a thousand words.
    love watching these boys grow.
    Carolyn Martin, friend of “The Dukes”.ReplyCancel

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  • Sue - How special – I wish my son had that…

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(photos by Ian Johnson)

Four years ago on Mother’s Day we dedicated Cora. Two years ago on Mother’s Day we dedicated Levi. And this year on Mother’s Day we dedicated little Griffin. This is what we wrote about Griffin for the dedication:

In Welsh the name Griffin means “strong in faith”. We chose Jeremiah 9:23-24 for Griffin. It is our prayer that Griffin would grow up to be a man of strength because he understands and knows our Heavenly Father. We naturally want our boys to be strong and smart, but we are praying that Griffin would have the kind of strength that only comes from Him…the kind of strength that points others to Him.

Griffin’s middle name is James after Joel’s brother, James. James has a passion for people and for others to know Jesus. As we pray for Griffin to understand and know God, we pray that his life will also overflow with a passion for the things that concern our Heavenly Father…just like his Uncle James.

Griffin has such a sweet personality, he thinks his big brother is awesome, and he resembles his sister Cora in so many ways. Griffin is a blessing to our family and we are so grateful that the Lord has entrusted him to us.


My feelings this year on Griffin’s dedication day were very similar to my feelings two years ago when we dedicated Levi. Although we have dedicated Griffin to the Lord since the day he was born, there is a certain heaviness that comes as we stand up in front of our church body to publicly give back to God, what He has so graciously given us in the gift of our son, Griffin. Don’t get me wrong. I know God is sovereign over my kids. I know that He loves them way more than I do…His plan for their lives is far greater than my plans for them. But if I’m honest, there is a certain heaviness in that too. Knowing that I have to hold my kids loosely in my hands. And knowing what it is like to have to let go. They are His. God has given us the amazing gift and responsibility to raise them. But sometimes I want to hold on too tight. If you ask me if I trust God, I would say yes. But the reality is that I still struggle. I still have to make a daily choice to trust God fully…especially when it comes to my kids.

And then I think about my purpose and calling as a mom. I get overwhelmed when I think of the huge responsibility I have in teaching and training these boys in God’s Word. I want them to come to understand and know God. I want them to love God and serve Him with all of their hearts for all of their days. Last week in Bible study we were talking about our call as Christians to persevere…to remain steadfast, to build up our faith, to keep learning, to keep praying. Persevering can seem overwhelming at times. Thankfully we are not called to persevere in our own power, but in the persevering powers of God, who is “able to keep us from falling” (Jude 24). I think I can apply that to being a mom too. I am called…along with Joel…to bring my boys up in the training and instruction of the Lord. This seems like an overwhelming task, but it is a job that I don’t have to do (and can’t do!) in my own power, but in the persevering powers of God.

I smiled today at our last BSF for the year when I saw that the home training sheet was about the privilege of being a parent. I guess it is something the Lord is trying impress on my heart right now! There was one paragraph on seeking God’s perspective in parenting and I love what these two parents had to say,

“The first thing I did when I opened my eyes each morning was to thank God that He knew everything the hours of that day held for me and then to ask Him to help me fulfill the purpose of that one day.”

“I tried to think consciously of God’s presence flowing through me to my children. Through me, God’s own arm loved my child, protecting him, restraining him, teaching him. Through me, God’s voice was speaking to my child in wisdom, in pleasure, in admonition. What a difference it made in my reactions to rely on God’s power instead of resorting to my human instincts!”
(BSF International, The Acts of the Apostles 2011)

I love being a mom, but I know I don’t have the strength within myself to be the kind of mom my boys need without the power of God. I am so thankful for His power at work within me!

Attention, Israel!
God, our God! God the one and only!
Love God, your God, with your whole heart: love him with all that’s in you, love him with all you’ve got!
Write these commandments that I’ve given you today on your hearts. Get them inside of you and then get them inside your children. Talk about them wherever you are, sitting at home or walking in the street; talk about them from the time you get up in the morning to when you fall into bed at night. Tie them on your hands and foreheads as a reminder; inscribe them on the doorposts of your homes and on your city gates.
Deuteronomy 6:4-9 (The Message)
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  • Lyssa at Living Simple in the South - Beautiful Jes! You should write a book someday, you have such a great way of humbly encouraging! WE dedicated Weston and Ally together this past fall and it is such a special day, glad we were able to see a window into your day! LOVE LOVE LOVE your thoughts on how it can be overwhelming at time raising our children in the ways of the Lord, I read power of a praying parent last year and the thing I most took away was just to pray, cover them in prayer over every circumstance you worry about…even if it seems like something God wouldnt care about!
    PS…you looked so cute, as did your whole family 🙂ReplyCancel

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  • Meggie - I love everything you wrote about… and I too am guilty of wanting to hold on too tight and struggling with trusting God with my babies. You are a great example and I appreciate you sharing your heart. Your family looked beautiful on Griffin’s dedication day!ReplyCancel

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  • Kim - I just started following your blog and I LOVE it. Your well written words and advice really help me. And the fact the you open your heart and share openly inspire me. Thanks so much for the encouragment.ReplyCancel

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  • Auntie EM - I really like Griffin’s dedication. I continue to be in awe at your faith and trust in God. After losing my husband, mother and father in a short 7 month period of time 3 years ago, I wondered if I had enough faith, hope and trust to move forward. But low and behold, He sent me tender mercies when my only son and his wife had their baby boy only one year after the last of those 3 amazing people passed away. My 3 kids live with me so I get to see my grandson (who turns 2on Sunday) every single day. The Lord called my 3 family members back home but He sent me those 3 children to be part of my every day life. Thank you for sharing a little bit of your family with strangers. I am only one of many who are glad we found your blog and admire you and your family so very much. Hold on as tight as you can and continue to trust the Lord. He knew what was best for your beautiful Cora and He knows what is best for you. He is aware and knows of your heartache and how much you miss her but she is safe in His arms for now. I hope you have a wonderful happy day today.ReplyCancel

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  • Annabel - I bet your Mom and Dad were very proud to have both baby Griffin and Webb dedicated! You all looked so cute and happy. Thanks for sharing, Jess. Your words always inspire and encourage.ReplyCancel

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  • Meghan - What an amazing post. I have goosebumps. You encourage me so much Jess. You were a topic at my own bible study this week. I often think of you as we answer questions about our weekly sermons at church. The strength that you have and the honor you bring to Him despite all of the hardships you’ve endured makes me feel so lucky to have stumbled onto your blog last summer. Thank you as always for your honesty and encouraging words. Your children are so lucky to have you as their Momma!ReplyCancel

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  • Beki - TheRustedChain - This is so sweet.
    Baby dedications get me every time.ReplyCancel

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  • Nguyen Family - I just started following your blog and am totally inspired by your passion for not only your children, your husband, your family as a whole but also your love for our God. You are an inspiration for other moms, like myself. I, too, can totally relate to wanting to hold on to our children and at times forget that they really do belong to our Heavenly Father. They really are his and I struggle with that as well. As a Mom, I want to squeeze tight and NEVER let go. One of my mommy friends recently recommended the following book to me: Learning to Let Go by Carol Kuykendall. I have yet to read it but it is all about just that… learning to let go of our babies and trust that God will lead the way.
    Just thought I’d share. Thanks for blogging and allowing others (like me) to follow. Blessings!ReplyCancel

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There was a time when I dreaded Mother’s Day. It was on Mother’s Day 2009 that I realized what an incredible privilege it is to be a mom. While I still technically was a mom…and everyone so sweetly reminded me of that…there was something so horribly difficult about facing that day without my daughter. I knew I would always be Cora’s mom, but I honestly didn’t feel much like a mom at all. I had always taken it for granted that when we were ready to have children *boom* I would get pregnant and then I would be a mom…a happy mom with a happy little family. It wasn’t until I was waking up every morning to empty arms when I ached for my arms to be full, that my eyes were opened. Yes, Mother’s Day is most definitely a day to celebrate, but it is also a day full of heartache and pain for so many. 
While I don’t dread Mother’s Day anymore, it is a bittersweet day for me. It is a day when I am reminded of how much I miss being a mom to my baby girl but a day that I am also reminded of how thankful I am to be able to say that being a mom is my job again. It is a day that I once took for granted, but now see with new eyes. And it is a day that I hurt for all the women, who for whatever reason, are having to face Mother’s Day with a broken heart.
I am privileged to be a mom. 
Right now, at this time, God has entrusted me with two boys…His calling on my life is to be a mom to my boys. If you are like me, you have often wondered what God’s purpose for your life is…what is His plan for me? I want to do great things for Him. I want to fulfill His purposes in my life. While God very well may have other purposes for my life that I need to seek Him in, one thing I can be sure of is that His purpose for me at this time in my life is to be Levi and Griffin’s mom. What an awesome purpose and responsibility. There is nothing I would rather do than be a mom to my boys, but sometimes I can lose sight of that if I start seeking to find purpose only outside of my home.
I remember being really challenged by a BSF home training sheet from last year about the privilege of being a parent. I dug it out over the weekend to remind myself of what it said…
It is a delightful wonder that God has chosen us to receive His gift of children and to realize that it is our great blessing to love, protect, and train them. As the years begin to go by, it is sometimes a surprise to discover that in addition to impacting a child’s life God accomplishes another purpose in parenting. Through the challenges, frustrations, joys, and observation of human nature in our little ones, we, ourselves, can be personally conformed more and more to the image of our Lord Jesus Christ. What an added dimension this gives to the calling of a parent–God is using the children He has given me to mold me

…Recognizing the place God wants you to be, being satisfied in it, and doing your part diligently are significant steps for parents. It is possible to overlook the seriousness of this privileged role. The temptation is great to respond to the world’s clamoring that only outside the home can an adult do something worthwhile, fulfilling, or beneficial for mankind. And it is very easy to neglect the daily opportunities to nurture a child. (BSF International, Isaiah 2010)

As another Mother’s Day rolls by, I am praying that I would remember what an incredible privilege it is to be a mama. That I would be content in the place God has called me as a parent. That I would see God’s incredible purpose in my job as Levi and Griffin’s mom. And that not only would the Lord use me to impact the lives of my children, but that He would also use my children to mold me. 
It is a privilege to be a mama. 
Let’s never forget that.
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  • Emily - Although I can’t even begin to imagine what you went through with Cora, this Mother’s Day was bittersweet for me too. I would have been about 6 weeks from my due date, but, sadly, I had a miscarriage back in the fall. As we celebrated my mom and mother-in-law yesterday, I couldn’t help but feel sad that we weren’t celebrating my “mom-to-be” status too.

    I guess it will just make me appreciate and love that little guy/girl when the time is right. In God’s time. 🙂ReplyCancel

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  • Emily - I have that exact BSF sheet in my Bible as my daily reminder! It is so true…..I am definitely being molded!ReplyCancel

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  • mommy26baybas - Hi !! I sent you a message to the email I saw.I wasn’t sure if you recieved it.Could you let me know if I need to send to a different email,please.Thank you so much.God Bless you !!!ReplyCancel

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  • Kate @ Songs Kate Sang - May I never neglect the opportunity to nurture. Thank you, thank you for that beautiful reminder.ReplyCancel

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  • E @ Oh! Apostrophe - Love this post. Thanks for reminding me!ReplyCancel

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  • Suzanne - That was beautiful! Sometimes I get so caught up in my kids misbehaving and getting frustrated that I forget what a joy and privilege it is that they are in my life!ReplyCancel

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  • The Hopkins Home - I really needed to hear that today. As my children have started school I’ve really struggled with finding value in what I do and trying to find out God’s purpose for my life. This spoke volumes to me – thank you and God bless your sweet family.ReplyCancel

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  • Immeasurably More Mama - Beautiful. I rarely comment but always enjoy reading your blog, Jess. There were many Mother’s Days filled with sadness for me so I have compassion for women who face this day with broken hearts. Now I am privileged to be the mama of two boys. I have often said they are God’s way of sanctifying me. 🙂 Love them to pieces…but they sure can bring out the best and worst parts of me!ReplyCancel

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  • the brokaws - what a great post. thank you!ReplyCancel

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  • Andy and Cari - Such a great reminder… That I needed… Today. Thanks for speaking truth.ReplyCancel

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  • DianeTaylor - Hi Jess – thank you for reminding me what a privilege and an honor it is to be a mom. It was a very hard day for me, without my Jonathan’s voice in my ear or his arms around me for a good hug. Being a mom to an angel is a hard job – but I got thru the day with tears and hugs from family members. God called me to be a mother – now he is calling me to redefine my life and look ahead to a different future. Definitly not what I pictured it to me!

    God Bless you and your sweet family! Happy Belated Mothers Day!

    xxoo – DianeReplyCancel

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  • Auntie EM - Beautiful post…..You inspire me to want to be a better person and a better mom. I was married for 7 years before my husband and I adopted our only child, our son, who is now 29 and a father now too. I think I was supposed to learn patience from waiting 7 years but….well, still learning. Take care and have a wonderful day.ReplyCancel

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  • Melissa Joy - Perfectly on the spot, Jess. You constantly steal the words from my heart. I don’t even really know you, but I love you.
    Being molded right along there with you, and thankful for God’s mercy right through the bittersweetness~
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  • anislandlife - Thanks so much for this post. Even though I know this, it is so great to be reminded!!ReplyCancel

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  • Maydelin - beautiful words!!ReplyCancel

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  • EricaG - So well said, Jess. Although I haven’t experienced a loss or infertility, on Mothers’ Day I think of the women who have.ReplyCancel

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  • Sarah - A beautiful post, Jess… as always you are an inspiration.
    And a happy late mother’s day to you.ReplyCancel

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  • Megan - Just wanted to say I love your blog and gave you an award over on mine. Wanted to give others a chance to love you too! http://girlmeetscamera.com/2012/05/catching-up-blog-awards/ReplyCancel

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Sorry it has been a little quiet around here this week. May has been busy. This weekend we have graduations, parties, a birthday and a baby dedication. I finally figured out how to get the pictures off my phone again…so here are a few things that have been going on around here the past few weeks. Hope you have a great weekend!
Pictures :: six month photos for Griffin & white frames for me
 Playing :: Levi loves playing in the basket & Griffin loves watching his brother play
Gardening :: my shopping helpers & checking on the plants
 Eating :: cold pizza & ice cream

 Growing :: strawberries & peonies (my favorite!)

 Picnicking :: lots of cousins & big muscles
Outside :: wagon rides & taking a break (oh, my poor plants!)
My boys :: one who is finally sleeping more & one who is crazy as ever!
Love them.
life rearranged

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 It is becoming a family tradition to drive out to the Flint Hills every year for a family picnic. The Flint Hills are beautiful this time of year.
We drive on a winding dirt road through miles of green pasture. There are cattle grazing everywhere you look. Levi thinks that is awesome.

 And before we get to the picnic spot we always have to stop at this old sycamore tree for a picture. The same tree Joel had his picture taken under as a kid.
There are two more cousins added this year. It is getting a little tricky to take a picture while everyone is smiling and before the big babies get dropped…don’t worry the big babies survived.
 One more picture.
 We jump back in the car and head a little further down the dirt road until we get to our picnic location.
Blankets are spread and the picnic begins. Joel’s mom always makes fried chicken. Best picnic food ever.

 And then the fun begins. The kids spend hours playing in the creek. The babies are stuck on the blankets. Maybe next year, Griffin.

 Instead of playing in the water, we have a little photo shoot instead. This is Griffin’s cousin Leo. They are three weeks apart.
 Collecting rocks.
Throwing rocks.

 Trying to catch baby minnows.
 No luck for Levi, but he sure had fun trying.
 Time exploring with Papa.
 And by the end of the afternoon everyone is worn out…
…and very dirty.
See you next year Flint Hills!
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