The Macs » Blog

Happy half birthday Levi!
Sweet Levi,
It is hard to believe you are half a year old. We have loved every minute of the last six months with you. You are precious. Over the past month you have started doing so many new things. You are eating baby food now and you love it. We haven’t tried too many new things yet, but everything we put near your mouth you eat. You love your walker. You follow your mama all around the house. Those chubby little legs of yours move so fast! Now that you are sitting up, you would much rather play sitting up than lying down. You grab all your toys and try to put everything in your mouth. You hadn’t rolled over yet UNTIL last night! Last night when we checked on you before we went to bed you had rolled onto your tummy and fallen asleep. You have definitely gotten into a pretty good routine now. You eat four times a day, you take two pretty good naps, and you sleep through the night. I would say that sounds like a perfect baby! You love to play with your toes, you like reading books with mama and daddy, you are starting to really laugh when we tickle you, you play peek-a-boo with us, and you love your blanket. But I think one of my favorite things about six months is that you are starting to light up when your daddy comes home. I love that. And I love you too sweet little boy.
Love, Mama
Posted in: Uncategorized
sharepinTweet
Leave a comment

  • Morgan Paige - This is so sweet. Yall are precious!ReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • Mama in the City - Yeah! Happy Half A Year! How exciting! We can’t buy baby walkers here in Canada so it is cute to see a baby in one. Especially your boy as he is just so chubbalicious!ReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • Carrie - Happy Half Year, Cutie!!

    Btw, you must have a great camera. Your pics are amazing.ReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • Sasha - Happy half birthday Levi!

    God bless. xReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • k and c's mom - I am full of The Happy reading this post.
    Happy 1/2, Levi. Happy Fourth to the entire family.ReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • Trina S. - Yea Happy Bday seeet boy!
    Trina
    http://www.mommeville.comReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • Lauren Kelly - WOW, can’t believe he’s already 6 months. Crazy!!!!!! Time flies!! 🙂 He is precious!ReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • Julie - Levi is so gorgeous! Happy 1/2 Birthday little one!ReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • purejoy - sooo precious. i just want to nibble on those chubby little legs and toes!!! (that makes me a mom, not a weird stalker, haha!!)ReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • Michellesayshi - What an adorable baby! And a cute quilt he’s laying on… did you make that or was it a gift? I’m just starting to quilt myself and I find it quite addicting! 🙂ReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • The Moffats - Happy 6 months, Levi!! How can it be? Sending lots of love and hugs! He is sooo stinkin cute – I need to see my nephew soon!ReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • Amanda - love you sweet little levi!ReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • Jenifer's Journey - Happy Half Birthday LeviReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • Alicia - Love the baby thighs! My son had those too and I couldn’t help but squeeze just a bit every day.
    Happy half birthday Levi from COReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • Savanna - Wow…time flies! 6 months old! And yes, I saw another comment about walkers not available in Canada….my niece rolls around in hers, but my girls never got to have one! Oh well..they learned to walk anyway! happy 6 month bday Levi…you are one lucky fellow!ReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • Stef - six months old is SUCH a fun stage! I’ve loved watching all 3 of our kids explore new things and develop more personality. He is so handsome and the chubs on his legs are completely kissable. What a sweet lil’guy.

    Happy 6, Levi!ReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • SheilaP - He is so beautiful! You are a great mama, Jess!ReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • Lexie Loo & Dylan Too - Happy 6 months, Levi!ReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • J. Henry - He is so so precious! I love reading about him because my baby is almost the same age! I’m sure it is one of a kind, but does the person that made your quilt sell them? I LOVE it and have been looking for a quilt that I love for a while now.ReplyCancel

    [Reply]

About a week ago Joel and I both felt this wave of sadness coming over us again. It never fully goes away, but the intensity definitely comes in waves. Usually it comes at different times for each of us. But this time we are both feeling it. As we began talking we realized that these feelings were probably because Levi is getting closer and closer to the stage we remember Cora at. All the new things he is learning and doing, those are the last memories we have with Cora. And while those memories are so precious and we are experiencing so much joy now watching Levi go through those same stages, it is hard. It makes us miss our little girl. It is all those little daily reminders…

One night we were sitting at the table eating dinner and Joel was holding Levi in his lap. Levi started sucking on the edge of the table. We laughed as we remembered Cora doing the exact same thing. We remembered when her bottom teeth came in she even started gnawing on the table. I had forgotten all about that. I reached down and felt the edge of the table where she always sat in her sassy seat. They were still there. The whole edge of the table was covered in her teeth marks. A reminder.

We are reading lots of books with Levi now. Cora always LOVED to read and I think Levi is finally starting to like it too. It took him a little longer. :o) He likes one of Cora’s favorite books, Moo, Baa, La La La! The last page says, “It’s quiet now. What do you say?” Joel always changed the words to “It’s quiet now. What does Cora say?”. Now every time I read it to Levi I hear Joel saying Cora’s name in my head before I say, “It’s quite now. What does Levi say?”. A reminder.

I hear the walker rolling through the house and I can’t help but remember looking down and seeing Cora at my heels. Except this time there is no mistaking between the two of them. Cora just slowly tip-toed around in her walker. She moved a little at a time. Levi runs in his walker. He is fast and he is everywhere! A reminder.

Levi has been chowing down on his baby food lately. He loves it. I gave him squash today and as I gave him a spoonful he flashed me this adorable smile that reminded me so much of a picture we have of his sister with squash all over her face. A reminder.

And when Levi starts to get a cold or is not feeling the best. When we start to worry that maybe something is wrong. When we debate about whether we are paranoid parents or if we should be taking him in to see the doctor. When I wait in the pediatricians office, I can’t help but have my mind wander back to the day when we thought Cora just had a bad ear infection and found out she actually had cancer. A reminder.

And then I began thinking.

I began thinking of all the reminders of God’s great love for me.

The reminders that are right in front of me but I am often too busy to notice. As I began thinking through the past week there were so many things that came to my mind. So many reminders of God’s love for me…

A card that came in the mail this week. Just a note to let me know that this friend was still praying for me. I so needed that encouragement. She assured me that my sorrow is not forgotten. A reminder.

Joel was at a meeting a few days ago. They were talking about some things related to what we had been through with Cora. He was having a hard time with it and a buddy noticed and came and put his arm around him. I loved hearing him share that with me. I loved that a tough guy was willing to show my husband love and support. A reminder.

As I walked out of church on Sunday in the middle of the service to feed Levi we were singing Amazing Love. The words kept running through my head all day.
Amazing love, 
How can it be
That you, my king, would die for me?
I love those words. God’s love for me is amazing. So amazing, that He has already met my greatest need. A reminder.

I have had the opportunity to share my story with several people lately. I love that Cora is part of that story. I love that the Lord is still using her short life to reach people. A reminder.

And of course Levi. The sweet little boy I get to spend my days with. I am so blessed to be his mama. Although everyone says that he looks just like his daddy (and he does), I love that I can see a little of his sister in him too. Levi’s life is a gift. And a huge blessing from the Lord to our family. A reminder.

Sometimes we get overwhelmed with life or with our circumstances. We get overwhelmed with the things that are pressing on our emotions and the things that are just plain hard. We forget to look for the Lord’s provision that is all around us. We even forget to remember how the Lord has provided and been so faithful to us in the past.

Today will you look around for those reminders?

Will you look for the Lord’s love and provision that is all around you?

Then I thought, “To this I will appeal:
the years of the right hand of the Most High.”
I will remember the deeds of the LORD;
yes, I will remember your miracles of long ago.
I will meditate on all your works
and consider all your mighty deeds.
Psalm 77:10-12

(I remember Joel posting these verses on one of our very hard days in the hospital with Cora. It seemed like every time we turned around we were plowed over with more bad news. But today, just like that day in the hospital, I am reminded that the God we serve is faithful no matter what we are going through.)

Posted in: Uncategorized
sharepinTweet
Leave a comment

  • ~Rachel - You are amazing. Your faith is so inspiring. I can’t imagine what you have gone through, though the thought of feeling the teethmarks on the table brought me to tears.
    That baby boy is so adorable and I have seen Cora in some of the shots you have posted.
    Thank you for your inspiring attitude.ReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • Mama in the City - This is such a beautiful inspiring post, your words spoke volumes. You gave me a great reminder to always remember my own friend’s sorrow around the loss of her baby girl a few months ago. To always remember is so important and you expressed that so nicely.ReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • Ellen Grant - My baby girl turned 11 months old today. I am in tears. I have so much for which to be thankful. Thank you for YOUR reminder.ReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • Marla Taviano - This post brought tears to my eyes, Jess. For you and Joel and how much it must hurt to miss Cora. For my friends Amy and Billy who are feeling those same waves of grief right now as they miss their Abigail and love on her baby brother Gregor. And for me, as I struggle right now to see God’s love and provision, even though you’re so right–He’s always there and He loves me.

    Thank you for your beautiful words and sharing your heart. Missing Cora with you tonight!! I know I never knew her, but she had me wrapped around her finger, and I have a physical ache in my heart tonight.ReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • Trisha Larson - I just posted about a tough “reminder” of my own. About how I am struggling to deal with the grief of my son’s death when those reminders come.

    Right after I published it, I clicked on your post. Thank you for writing this. Thank you for showing me God’s love in a very tangible way. The timing could not have been more perfect!!!

    Hugs,
    TrishaReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • kati - brought tears to my eyes. you are a wonderful mama. i’d never be able to get rid of that table!! xoxoReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • Kristi - Your post has moved me to tears. I read your blog all the time and I really needed to hear your message tonight.
    Your family is amazing and I’m so happy to be a part of seeing it transform and help other people!
    KristiReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • jennifer rogers - I just love how much my Heavenly Father gives me just what I need at the exact time that I need it. His wisdom overflows! I am sitting in my dear Grandmother’s home, she passed away Monday, tomorrow is her funeral and I am feeling a little sad, a little empty, a little lost and I decided to hop on the laptop and look at some blogs and here is this wonderful post from my favorite blog to “stalk” I have just fallen in love with your sweet family, with your precious Cora and your new addition Levi! The courage and faith that you show is such a testimony builder to me and I just appreciate your simple and straightforward post. I needed it during a time of struggle. Thank you for sharing your family with strangers, you have touched more lives than you will ever know!ReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • EmilyE - Thank you for this post! I needed to read it today. I too need to appreciate those little reminders from God.ReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • Amy - The teethmarks on the table got me too. Hugs to you, my friend.ReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • JuliaVP - What God is doing in your life is a reminder that he will never leave or forsake the rest of us too. Thank you so much for your honesty and openness!ReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • Dana - Your post has me in tears, especially the part about the little teeth marks in the table. I would never be able to part with that table.

    You are so strong. Cora is so proud of her Mom and Dad and Levi is so fortunate to have such wonderful parents.

    DanaReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • Marylou in Abilene, Texas - Thank you for sharing from your heart in the blog today. God continues to bless many of us as you pour out your feelings for your two precious babies, one in you arms and one in heaven. God has done such a wonderful job of allowing us to have memories that keep our little ones close in our hearts. In my prayer for you and Joel, I am asking God to give you a special blessing today. You are such a dear family to many of us.ReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • Stef - loved this post, Jess. I needed this reminder today.
    As I come to your website and watch Levi getting bigger, I’ve wondered the very thing you posted about tonight. I stopped and prayed for you last night because I realized if I were in your shoes, I’d be fearful of so many things. I’d worry and then wonder if I was just worrying too much, over so many things. God shining through you, looks so beautiful to behold! Its glorious to see what sorrow, deep sadness and grief even turned to joy looks on a child of God. That HE can be reflected in our lives and that in ANY situation we can give God the glory… I’m awe struck. But I’m mostly awe struck how the Lord has used life of an almost one year old little girl to bring glory to Himself and to help SO many others. May He be praised.ReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • mandi@itscome2this - Your posts always come around to giving thanks & praising God! You are blessing. Continuing to pray for more good & sweet reminders from the Lord!ReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • DianeTaylor - Hi Jess – thank you for posting this. I don’t comment very often on your blog but I have been drawn into Cora’s amazing story like so many others. Levi’s pictures are just adorable – so much like Cora in so many ways. I believe that Cora sent Levi to you both to help ease the pain just a little. I needed this reminder of God’s love for me. I promise that today I will look around with fresh eyes and try to see all God’s reminders, big and small.

    Blessings to you and Joel and sweet Levi 🙂

    ~dt~ from Baltimore MDReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • Taylor - So sweet- I cant even imagine losing a child our prayers are still with you and your family!ReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • mary - Thank you for your testimony and your faith. You are an encouragement to me!!! Praying for you this morning and looking for those “reminders” of God’s love today!ReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • Janine - Thank you. I needed to hear some of those reminders today.ReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • Katina - Great post! What an encouragement to me and others to remember the goodness of the Lord! Thanks for sharing! Praying for you today. 🙂ReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • Beth - This was a beautiful post. It moved me to tears. Thank you for sharing such an intimate part of your life with all of us stranger/friends who are praying with your family.ReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • Anonymous - You have such a way with words. Thank you for reminding me of God’s blessings. Still praying for you.

    Angie in TXReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • Townsend Crew - YOU are my reminder…
    my reminder of God’s love for me…
    my reminder of how God provides…
    my reminder of what real faith looks like…

    Thank you for sharing continuing to share Cora, Levi & your faith with us. I am in awe of YOU.ReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • Kelly @ Sufficient Grace Ministries - I have not read your blog in awhile. And, I cannot believe how your sweet Levi has grown! He is so adorable!! Your family has been on my heart, lately…and in my prayers. This post was so beautifully written. We do see those reminders…not only of those who are “missing” from our lives, but also of the great love and blessings that we have been given by our loving heavenly Father. I understand the “missing” and the reminders that sweep over the moments in your day. I understand it well.

    Thank you for this beautiful reminder today…

    Continued prayers for you…ReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • Sara - What a beautifully touching post. I think of you guys often. I, too, am experiencing being a parent to my second child after losing my first. Different circumstances, but the pain is the same.
    Praying for you guys!ReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • Maria - My heart is so sad for you. I will say a prayer for you all this morning.ReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • The McBrayer family - This is one of the most precious posts I have ever read. How encouraging, how beautiful, how inspiring that you are kind enough to share what the Lord is teaching you through this. The “teeth marks” are so special. You will treasure those forever. How neat. You are such a precious soul. Thank you for sharing your life. And that little Levi..oh my…he is such a doll!!!ReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • Jennifer Dawn - Thanks for sharing what was on your heart! I know that God is still using Cora and you family in a mighty way!ReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • Kristin Stegent - Wow…you are the only person right now who sends me into tears. You get me every time. Your friend was right, your sorrow certainly is not forgotten…even by us strangers. I often tell Cora’s story. I often feel sadness and pain for you guys. I am so glad you can see God’s love, and I am so sorry for all the sadness and sorrow you have experienced and still do experience.ReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • monkeetrouble7 - I work at a Children’s hospital and I hear sad stories weekly but I also hear stories of hope and healing. I can’t imagine what parents go through but your strength and faith are something I admire. Your story has really touched me and I pray for a long, healthy life for Levi. Cora will always be watching out for her mama and dada and her baby brother.ReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • Nicole - So beautiful. So true. Thank you for sharing.ReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • Anonymous - Inspiring and heartbreaking all at the same time. Thank you for sharing your Cora with us and your sweet little Levi.

    KimReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • Don, Aimee, Kaitlyn and Kysen - Thank you for your words of encouragment…you are also a gift from God to many people that don’t even know you! Your wisdom and faith are beyond your years and I just feel so inspired by your touching verses that you cling to! Thank you and prayers as you continue your journey that God paved for you!ReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • Trina S. - thank you for sharing…. I cant imagine…

    remember too…

    levi is his OWN spirit… teaching you to trust a whole new love for him!
    Be strong and thank you sooo much for sharing!
    Trina
    http://www.mommeville.comReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • k and c's mom - I am so glad that you get to share about Cora. I know the thing that encourages me the most since losing my husband last summer is when people say his name, remind me of something he did, or just remember him. People often tell me they don’t know what to say to me, but remembering my husband (or your Cora), is always a good thing. Hang in there, sweet girl. Lord, come near.ReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • Melissa Joy - Thank you for reminding *me*!
    I’m sitting here nodding my head and trying to keep my eyes from spilling tears.
    Thank you.
    I’m seeing so many constant reminders of the 6 babies I don’t get to hold, and forgetting to see the reminders of my King’s undeniable love.
    Thank you.ReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • Kristi - Thank you for this reminder today. I love seeing how God has blessed you guys with sweet Levi, after blessing you with sweet Cora. I wish I lived closer; even though we have never met, I would love to give your neck a hug! Thanks again for the encouragement!ReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • Lindsay - jess – we love you guys and pray for you frequently. i love seeing your heart and sharing jesus with us. thanks for being willing. have a great 4th!ReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • Trish - this was so beautifully written! i needed to hear this today as today i am celebrating the birth and loss of my sweet little caylin. today i will look for reminder of God’s love.
    thanksReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • Kim - Beautifully said….I’m praying for you and your family…and praying that all of us take time to find those provisions….ReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • Anonymous - You are amazing. Thank you.ReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • Amber - Isn’t it strange how the little things remind us of those we lost but we tend to overlook what God has right infront of our face?

    What a great post, thank you for shareing your heart.ReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • Beki - TheRustedChain - I’ve wondered a lot lately when the next wave of grief/fear would hit for you, as Levi rolls into the stages Cora was.

    It’s so bittersweet, but I love that there are reminders everywhere! What a blessing that God had Cora chew on that table. What a blessing that we now have digital cameras and blogs and can so easily record memories.

    What a blessing that we’ll all be in heaven someday (soon hopefully!) and Levi and Cora will be able to play together.

    Praying for you often. God bless you!ReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • Tricia - Thank you so much for continuing to share your heart and your family with us. The teeth marks on the table gave me chills. One of the things I always say is that I love our pine farm table. I love all of the dings, and marks, and writing that is imprinted into the boards. I will have this table forever. This table tells the story of our family. As does yours.

    Still praying and sending love,

    XO*TriciaReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • MICHELE - There is a Jeremy Camp song that Julie mentioned way back when Cora was battling cancer. I think it is called “there will be a day.” Anyway every time I hear it it reminds me of Cora. I heard it yesterday and started crying and praying for you guys. I never knew or met Cora, but she still holds this piece of my heart. I was thinking how time marches on and how at time you may think the world has forgotten her as you are hit with sadness at times. I can’t imagine a life with out my daughter. So I want you to know I remember her too, all the time. Your faithfulness makes me a better mom, it puts life into perspective.
    I was getting ready to email you all this when I saw this post. It is like God gives your support group “reminders” too to pray for you and Joel.ReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • Meg - Sweet, sweet Cora, what a gem! Thank you for continuing to share her with us.

    Isaiah 43:1-2
    “Fear not, for I have redeemed you; I have summoned you by name; you are mine. 2. When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; and when you pass through the rivers, they will not sweep over you. When you walk through the fire, you will not be burned; the flames will not set you ablaze.ReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • Kelly - Just a quick hello, so I am still here! I have been lurking more these days than posting comments. But I want you to know that I am still praying for you. I know when something tragic happens, there is so much support in the beginning and then it gradually slips away. But I am still here and still praying. I love seeing the pictures you post and everytime I see one of Cora, I always think how unfair it is. You continue to inspire me with your faith and positive attitude.ReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • Robin in Benton - Hi Jess –
    Thanks so much for this post. I’ve been feeling down and sorry for myself here recently over some things that are
    a) totally insignificant compared to what you have been through and
    b) also totally insignificant compared to all the blessings that God has given me.

    Thank you for helping me refocus on the things that are really important. I still think of all of you and pray for you all the time and love seeing the pictures of Levi as he’s growing. You’re right – he looks like his dad but you can definitely tell that he and Cora are brother and sister. Blessings on all of youReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • Tamara - What a beautiful post, you’re a reminder that the world is full of beautiful people.ReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • Sarah - Amazing!ReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • Peter Damaska - Today my wife shared with me this post. It speaks so many of the words that I have been wondering how to state. Just over 9 months ago our daughter, Annie, died from brain cancer. We are now expecting, by choice, another child–a daughter.
    Your words helped me by communicating what I haven’t fully expressed and others I haven’t had the strength to express. Thanks. I’m certain we will continue to live with “reminders” but are looking to God for His help through them.ReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • Alyssa - That was convicting. I needed that. Thank you. Thank YOU for the reminder. Love you and praying for you continually.ReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • Sarah Johnson - I’ve commented once or twice before. We were at Ronald McDonald when you two were there. We lost one of our twin daughters, Natalie Grace. I can totally relate to the waves of sadness. You have such a gift with words. God bless you, and your family.ReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • Sarah Whitworth - Thank you for this post. Thank you for reminding me of these truths.

    Your sorrow is not forgotten or in vain. THank you for continuing to share your story (and photos of your charming son!)ReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • Anonymous - Yep, I’m in tears too. My heart breaks for you and Joel, for everything you have gone through with Cora – what a precious little girl. There is definitely a strong resemblence between her and Levi. Thanks for the reminder for us to see what/who is in front of us instead of what’s behind or upcoming. And the song “Amazing Love” is one of my favorites. It gets me everytime I sing it.

    KarenReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • cheryl - Jess, you don’t know me, but I’ve been following your blog and praying for your family from the time Cora got sick. I still come back to see how you guys are and to rejoice in your son’s birth.
    The verses you shared gave me the encouragement I needed ‘this day’.
    You see, I lost my Daddy just 10 weeks ago, and last Friday, my mother fell and broke her hip. She’s been in ICU for a week and is getting worse. Even though they are elderly, the pain is very real and God’s Word is the ultimate comfort!
    Thank you for sharing today b/c the Lord has used it to minister to my heart!ReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • Lindsay - What a beautiful post. Thank you for sharing your reminders with us. Praying for you and your family today and everday.ReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • The Wilsons - beautifuly written. prayers today and tomorrow.ReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • Leslie - Thanks for sharing your faith. I love the Lord, too, but, I go through periods of doubt and it seems I run across a special comment, an important quote or a testimony of someone I can relate to. So, thank you and stay on your path 🙂ReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • Claudia - I nearly cried when I read this post, I took the liberty of using one of your paragraphs from here as my status on FB because I felt your words were so powerful.

    I have a little girl (I also have a boy who’s older) and – believe it or not – even though we’ve never met when I look at her I think of your sweet Cora and how your blog and sharing your story has touched me so deeply.

    I’ve been following you for quite a while and many prayers had been said for you and your family.

    What a way to show God’s strength, God Bless you sweet Cora & Levi’s Mommy!ReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • Kristin - So beautifully written and a “reminder” to me to see all that God has created and given to us, whether big or small.ReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • purejoy - crying.
    i love your heart jess, and that you are willing to share these reminders with us. while i didn’t know cora personally, her time here on earth had such an awesome purpose. i’m probably not saying this well, but her presence had weight. she mattered. she matters. i love that she is so part of your story. every time you tell it, you give cora weight. and presence.
    so thankful for God’s provision through all of this.
    you are such an encouragement and inspiration. may God bless you through these reminders…ReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • mindibz - What a beautiful post. Thanks for sharing.ReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • Marcie - This is a beautiful post! It brought tears to my eyes, and let me tell you, I am NOT a crier. Very moving!!ReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • Vera - What a beautiful post. You are so inspiring and your tender heart is never far from me – I have prayed for y’all pretty much continuously since Cora got sick.ReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • The Chance Family - Praying for you in these difficult moments. Remembering you in the grief that comes and goes. You are such an inspiration and write beautifully! Levi is sooo adorable!ReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • AshleyAnn - Jess, this is a beautiful post…ReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • Toni :O) - I love this post and I love seeing Levi growing up. I’m sorry you still have such difficult reminders to go through but I know Levi is helping to ease your pain. I still think of you all so often and continue to pray for your sweet family. Thank you for reminding me how important it is to keep the faith.ReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • Lexie Loo & Dylan Too - This is such a beautiful post. All of the “reminders” brought tears to my eyes.ReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • Davene - Thank you for this. From the bottom of my heart, thank you.ReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • Marie - This was such a beautiful post. Thank you so, so much for sharing it.ReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • Jenifer's Journey - Your an amazing Woman I have been preying for you and JoelReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • Sue - I haven’t been past your blog in a little while; I haven’t been past any – life is just too busy at the moment. This post reminded me exactly why I love reading your blog – it’s honest and meaningful. It’s a reminder. I can only begin to imagine how you must both feel. Because of your blog, I treasure every moment I have with my son. I know, through personal experiences, that life is so precious, so fragile and we just have to hold onto every single precious second with our kids.

    You are both so strong and you have things so well in perspective (I know it’s hard keeping it that way) – I know I just couldn’t face up to what you already have. Enjoy Levi. Treasure him, spoil him and most of all love him as much as you can. Never be afraid to ask for help and I think everyone more than understands if you are neurotic. I am too and I haven’t been through what you have!

    Take care, Sue XXXReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • Micah - This is really good stuff, Jess. You are such a deep thinker. And I love that you always give the glory to God. Thank you for opening up your heart to all of us. You are an amazing woman of faith.ReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • Sarah Johnson - Jess, I hope you don’t mind, but I’m going to put a link on my blog to this post of yours. I have a hard time putting into words how I feel, and you did it so beautifully. Our daughter, Marleigh, is our life. However, it is a constant reminder of her twin sister that we lost. We too, feel incredibly blessed with how well Marleigh is doing and know that is gift from God.ReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • The Buchanan Family - An amazing post! Thanks for the reminder!ReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • Cindy - Thank you for the “reminder.” You are right that sometimes life is so busy we don’t see what God had provided. I have followed your blog for some time now and I am so inspired by your faith. Please know that your story has helped me in my own faith.ReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • Sarah - wow…I was teary eyed at the beginning of this post. Your faith and strength is amazing! Still praying for you dailyReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • Sheryl - Jess, Your words are potent! I am continually blessed by your not growing weary in doing well as Galatians tells us. You are one of the most faith-strong women I know (well you know what I mean, I blog-know you). Your family is just precious. It is so cute how boys are so different isn’t it?ReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • Ethansmom08 - I just want to say that your posts always inspire me and help me to put things in perspective in my own life. You and your family remind me everyday to have faith in the Lord and cherish every memory with our 2 year old son and second son on the way. What a blessing reading your blog and Cora’s story has been in my life. Thank you.

    God Bless,
    SaraReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • laney - …you are precious precious people…reminding us of a precious precious Lord…and i thank you…ReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • 4torock - WOw! Like all others have said- U DO AMAZE me… Your wisdom -your spirt, lift me up and anoint me with JOY- knowing we all feel pain and sorrow and to get to follow your journey through this – while at times breaks my heart- encourages me to love MY children more. LOVE my Husband more. and mostly LOVE our God the MOST! thank you so very much 🙂ReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • teresa - Dear little Sister-in-Christ, I’m old enough to be your mama (maybe even your grandma, lol) and am touched by your Faith and Wisdom. It is of the Lord and brings glory to your Father. Thanks for sharing your tender heart and inspiring insights. Love, Prayers & ((hugs)),ReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • Taking Heart - I love the title and theme of this post, “reminders.” A bitter and sweet… sweet and bitter… word to describe such big feelings… big memories… big love..

    Praying you dare to dream… that you avoid fearful thoughts… and that you cling to hope as you allow yourselves to enJOY your son at this very precious age.ReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • Donna H - Three singing pigs say La La La…I’m 51, a grandmother and that is one of the first books I bought for my twin granddaughters. I knew it by heart. Thanks for reminding me of the little things that really make a life…ReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • Kim - Reading this post, I am sitting here thinking how strong your faith is, and how it’s so hard to remind ourselves how much God loves us. I can’t imagine how hard it must be to see all those reminders everyday, and the little things that are really so big like the teethmarks and how quietly Cora tiptoed in her walker. God Bless you and your husband, and those sweet little babies!! You are such an inspiration!!ReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • Christina - That was good for me to read today…a few weeks ago I found out I was pregnant, unexpectedly. It was hard news in many ways, because our life is crazy right now and one more child in it seemed baffling…why would God do that? (The circumstances of conception were such that it was clearly God’s doing/allowing) Last week I received an email from a friend that was so encouraging and for the first time I had a glimmer of hope as far as what was going on, that maybe things really would be all right. I was scared, but had hope. The next day I began bleeding, and have proceeded to lose the baby. Confused, sad, guilty…there are so many emotions right now. Thank you for YOUR reminders…of how grateful we ought to be, of how we need to look for the things God has done and is doing.ReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • Nancy - Your blog is a blessing & a reminder of how precious children are! Thank you for being so honest & know that you are amazing & prayed for on a daily basis! Blessings to you & your sweet boy is PRECIOUS! – He does look like his beautiful sister that he will see again one day in Heaven!ReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • The Schilling's from Cimarron - I love this post, and have read it several times with tears in my eyes! I remember seeing you and your family walking thru the hospital with obvious heartache and yet had time to comfort us! and we have sever reminders of you and your family daily! I still sit and just stare at jaylee and remember those days together and what it meant for you to come into our lives! I am reminded of your faith and love daily and I just wanted you to know my heart is filled with joy for little Levi and yet I still have those precious reminders too of meeting you and seeing Cora also! Love to you also and just know we continue to pray for peace and comfort in your hearts always!
    love to you all!ReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • Miss G - Jess, it is so amazing how many lives Cora touched. I still think of her and you guys often even though I obviously never met her. God works in mysterious ways that I don’t understand as He somehow allows us to walk with each other, carry each other’s burdens in an “economy” that doesn’t make sense when we don’t even see each other face to face. KellyReplyCancel

    [Reply]

Last week I bought a little blow up pool for Levi.
And over the weekend Joel got it all set up for him.
We weren’t sure how he would like it since he wasn’t a huge fan of the ocean.
But he really loved it.
I think he could have stayed out there all day.
Did you notice who is sitting up like a big boy?
Yep, the sitting up makes him pretty happy too.
He is pretty sturdy most of the time.
And the rest of the time someone is there to catch him.
When he got tired of the water, he was content to just sit in this chair.
And talk to his dad.
He loves his dad.
I think we are going to be spending lots of our summer evenings out here.
Just sitting by the pool.
Posted in: Uncategorized
sharepinTweet
Leave a comment

  • rsiewert - He is so so precious! I am due to have a baby boy in November and hope hes half as precious as your little guyReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • Alicia - What a sweet face and such a chunky monkey…LOVE IT! My son looked just like this at that age…he is 8 1/2 years old now and has grown so tall and lean. Cutie patootie!ReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • Erica - ahhh he is SO sweet and SO cute!ReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • Stef - oh my goodness, what a cutie pie in that swim suit! I love how content (and quite proud of himself) he looks sitting up like a BIG boy!
    My favorite picture is the one with “the guys” talking… looks super cute and I bet someday, you’ll be able to take a much newer version of it and put the two in a frame, side-by-side 🙂ReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • Kristen@nosmallthing - I love that. He is so precious.ReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • Mum2twopreciousgifts - As I scrolled down through the GORGEOUS photos of Levi, there was one of him and straight beside it in the sidebar is the photo of Cora sitting up laughing at the camera. The similarity between them is amazing.

    One of my friends lost her daughter at age 2. She has had 2 more children since losing her daughter in 2003. She said to me that she never stops missing her daughter, but with 2 little people to look after, she has less time to think about how much her loss hurts.

    God Bless you all, including Angel Cora, and thank you God for sending Levi.

    Good night from chilly Australia.ReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • Micah - What a roly poly ball of cutness. Wow. He is just a doll, Jess!!ReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • Micah - What a roly poly ball of cutness. Wow. He is just a doll, Jess!!ReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • Kahla - Such a doll!ReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • Shannon - Those pictures are adorable. Levi is such a cute, happy guy! But that picture of Levi talking to Joel?? That could melt any heart! Thanks for sharing!ReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • J. Henry - Love it!! I’ve been thinking about getting one for our (almost) 6 month old too. She is just starting to think about sitting up on her own. 🙂 Where did you get the pool? It looks like it’s a pretty good size!ReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • Sara - Seriously cute. I love that belly!ReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • Lauren Kelly - To sweet! He gets cuter every day!! 🙂ReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • Beki - TheRustedChain - Okay seriously Jess? Those plaid shorts? That belly? The chair?

    You’re killing me here with the cuteness!!ReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • Anonymous - Oh I’m with Beki..killing me….to adorable…he is precious…

    KimReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • Lindsay - I love the pics of Levi in the chair! He is such an adorable, happy baby!ReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • The Sieberts - LOVE the chair pics!ReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • Claudia - what an adorable boy he is! His big smile melts my heart!!!!!ReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • Robin - He looks so much like Joel in these pics! So cute. 🙂ReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • Townsend Crew - Haven’t missed a post, but haven’t written in a long time. Just loving your posts lately! It’s so great to see that you are finding joy in your life… Thanks for reminding me to always find the joy – even in the little things…ReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • Amber - Levi is one of the most adorable baby boys I have ever seen! He looks so much like his daddy, but I see you in there too! {I have not commented much, but I have read and prayed for you since sweet Cora went to be with Jesus}.ReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • Tricia - Oh my goodness. He is just so scrumptious! Oh, and I do hope that you plan on framing that last photo, especially. It’s just wonderful!

    With love and prayers,
    XO*TriciaReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • Jenifer's Journey - He is to cute …and chunky monkey lolReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • Mama in the City - This has to be my all time favorite baby age! The chub on your boy is just so sweet, how do you contain yourself from nibbling on his thighs?!ReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • Polka Dot Moon - He is just the yummiest little guy!! Love the pictures!ReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • Amanda - He is SO cute…my favorite picture is of him sitting in the chair making a funny face!ReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • Lexie Loo & Dylan Too - He is so cute! It looks like he loved it!ReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • Toni :O) - OMG…the last photo is SO stinkin cute!!! Love that photo so much. I am thrilled he’s growing so wonderfully…I pray for your family so often. Many hugs to you all.ReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • The Bonjour Family! - Awww I love your precious blog!! I’m a new follower and I will be back. You take awesome pictures and your little guy is Just adorable.ReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • Sue - I love the ‘new’ photos of Levi. He’s gorgeous and you just have to love those little baby rolls!!

    Sue XReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • Miss G - that “man to man” picture is just so great. Once again, lovin’ your little guy’s clothes (or swimsuit as the case may be). Kelly

    funny my word verification is “wateri”ReplyCancel

    [Reply]

Are you ready for your first bite of food Mr. Levi?
Levi thought he was pretty big stuff sitting up in the highchair.
I thought he would love cereal.
But he wasn’t so sure.
Probably because it didn’t taste like that ice cream 
his daddy gave him a few weeks ago.
I would be disappointed too buddy. 
And then he started fighting his daddy for the spoon.
He didn’t care so much about the cereal part.
We tried again.
And even managed to get a little in his mouth.
But really he still just wanted the spoon.
We took it away from him and he wasn’t very happy.
So, like good parents, we gave him what he wanted.
And then he decided he wanted the bowl too.
Levi’s been eating cereal and trying a few veggies for about three weeks now.
He actually is a really good eater.
Are you surprised?
But he is very easily distracted.
He wants to hold and touch everything around him.
And he is so wiggly.
I don’t think I need to worry about him getting enough to eat though.
When the first thing people say to him is,
“Wow, you are a good eater!”
or 
“Your mama must feed you well.”
I think he is doing just fine!
Posted in: Uncategorized
sharepinTweet
Leave a comment

  • The Wilson's - too cute, you’re pictures are great!ReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • Tara - ha ha. he’s so stinkin’ cute!!!ReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • purejoy - ohhhh he is scrumptious!! so adorable and what a neat way for him to see how his first try at cereal went.ReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • HisTreasuredPossession - I think I’ve mentioned before my son (1 mo younger than Levi) gets those comments too (he’s in teh 84%) oh, people! seriously, they need to leave *babies* alone and keep their skinny-minded words to themselves! Your boy is so precious and perfect as is!

    I’m looking forward to Peter eating solids soon. Lord knows I’m hoping it’ll get him sleeping a bit longer at night!!
    blessings,
    rachelReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • Amanda - He’s just a roly poly little bundle of cuteness!ReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • Heather | Cookie Mondays - Why do Daddies always spoil things just to be the fun one?! 🙂ReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • Lauren Kelly - HA!!! Being offered cereal after his bowl of ice cream, yeah… I’d be feeling his pain too, LOL!! 🙂ReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • Alex and Jill - He is a dollbaby!!ReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • emily - how stinkin’ cute!

    i just love the chubby rolls. 🙂ReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • Erica - sweet boy! he is a doll! i had the same problem with my youngest wanting to hold everything while feeding him & so we just gave him a spoon to hold while we fed him & it helped a LOT. i love your photos, they are beautiful!ReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • The Durham Family - He is adorable!ReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • Beki - TheRustedChain - Holy cow, he’s cute!!

    I love that you blog. I really do. It makes my day every time I check in here and you’ve put up a new post. 🙂ReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • Carrie - I have to second Beki on the blog! My boys loved the spoon more than the food too. Except, I made the mistake of giving Andrew (my oldest) the bowl. He was so cute and really wanted it. Man, was that a lesson learned!ReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • Tricia - Ooh, those cheeks! He is indeed doing just fine. 😉

    With love and prayers,
    XO*triciaReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • Sharon - Neat pictures! He just makes you want to squeeze him! Are you done with his room yet?ReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • Taking Heart - I love his wrinkles! I miss my babies! Sweet photos!ReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • L ~ S - I admit I had the same thought of ‘ he looks healthy’-be happy! I am right now babysitting my nephew who eats NOTHING! It is super hard to deal with!ReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • Jennifer - Levi reminds me of my first born…he weighed 31.9 lbs. at a year old. Now he’s 8 and weighs 92lbs. and is tall for his age. No more baby fat. ;( Levi is absolutely precious!! I still pray for you all!ReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • Stef - haha! these are super cute pix.
    I love all his rolls – even on his wrists! What a cute baby.
    Ethan didn’t like the rice cereal either…ReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • The Mershawn's - He is so precious. You gotta love boys. Wiggly, messy, handsy things….so cute!! Keep up the good work little Levi…ReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • Vera - He is SOOOOOOOOOOOO cute!!!!!ReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • Kristen@nosmallthing - Those pictures are great! He is a little hunk of love, isn’t he?! I had a couple of round little babies too and I loved it!

    I remember it taking me about an hour to feed one of my younger kids (can’t remember who now) because they would not focus!!!

    He is precious!ReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • Anonymous - What a little chub butt! I love roly poly babies. He is so cute. Just looking at the pictures makes you want to give him kisses on those chunky jaws. Little Levi looks like a happy baby – except for plane rides : )

    KarenReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • Princess Martha - He is gorgeous!ReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • Kahla - I love chunky babies, they are my favorite!! My son was a huge chunk, he’s 5 now and perfect! Adorable!ReplyCancel

    [Reply]

I know Father’s Day is over, but I had to tell you something about my dad.
He is great.
I mean really great.
And he is a wonderful grandpa too.
Even Levi thinks so.

So, this post is for those of you who know my dad.

You may remember in November of 2008 when I asked for prayer as my dad under went surgery. My dad and uncle are both doing great! And now they are wanting to help others who are facing a similar situation.

Here is an excerpt from a letter my dad recently sent out:

As you may remember, November 10, 2008 I donated one of my kidneys to my younger brother David who was suffering from a degenerative kidney disease. Thankfully the transplant procedure went flawlessly and my brother and I are both doing well. David and his wife have been living in Calgary Canada and he and I have been looking for a way to help others with similar kidney disease and transplant needs. As such we have both decided to walk in a 100 kilometer fundraising benefit for the Kidney Foundation of Canada in the Calgary area. The Kidney March will be conducted over three days from September 10-12 (walking roughly 20 miles per day) and each of us has pledged to raise at least $2200 apiece. That is where you can help me out. I will do the walking (and all the preparation necessary to walk that far – feet don’t fail me now) if you would be willing to donate to the cause. Your contribution is tax deductible and can be made on line at the Kidney March website:
http://fundraising.kidney.ca/site/c.tvI5IeNSJsE/b.5767581/k.BDFA/Home.htm


My dad has been walking like a crazy man to get ready for this. Seriously. I went over to my parents house the other night to pick up Levi and he had just gotten back from walking…and it was ten o’clock at night!

So, if you know my dad or if kidney disease is close to your heart, I know my dad would appreciate your support. To donate, follow the link above. On the upper right corner of the home page their is a “donate” tab. Click “sponsor a participant”. Search for Don Beverlin to pull up my dad’s fundraising page.
Today I am especially thankful for my dad. I hope you all had a wonderful Father’s Day celebrating the dads in your life too.
Posted in: Uncategorized
sharepinTweet
Leave a comment

  • Trisha Larson - You are lucky to have a Dad like that. So incredibly lucky.

    I never had a good Dad but I made sure that my kids would. I picked a great Daddy for them.

    Hugs,
    TrishaReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • Stef - what a blessing to have such a wonderful Dad! I hope he had a blessed Father’s Day.ReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • Christian @ Modobject at Home - This post is special to my heart as my dad is also a kidney donor {to his first cousin}. It takes a special person…

    Many blessing to your dad and his brother as they endeavor to great things for others. Thanks for sharing!ReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • k and c's mom - I could only donate a little, but if everyone leaves a little it will become a lot! Your family is apparently full of brave and courageous people. What a legacy.ReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • Anonymous - What an amazing dad you have, he raised such a beautiful family! I have so loved your father’s day posts and it makes my mama heart happy to see pics of Cora that are new to me. They are adorable, you can just tell in her sweet little face she is so loved and so blessed!
    Always praying for you in FL!
    Take care,
    Krista aka babykatesmomReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • meg duerksen - he is awesome.ReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • the rodriguez crew - I’ve enjoyed reading your blog for a long time now… i love your writing and photography especially! I am rooting for you Dad and made a donation! My dad made it thru his bout with kidney cancer, so it’s close to my heart too. Your family is adorable. 🙂ReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • Beki - TheRustedChain - He is such a neat guy.

    I’ll be donating.ReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • The Moffats - GO DONALD!!! We will be cheering for you all the way from Colorado!ReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • The Schilling's from Cimarron - Jess,
    How are you? My mom actually had a kidney transplant 4 years ago. She has a kidney disease that ran in her family! It was an amazing experience for us. Several family memebers were tested and unfortunately none of us qualified… she was put on the donor list and got a call one morning about 1am. It changed our lives forever! Tell your dad thank you for GIVING! and continuing to give!
    God Bless,

    AMIEReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • Stephanie Lane - Jess, this is awesome! I was excited to see that it will be in Calgary–I’m there now and will be moving here in February when I get married! My fiance is from here…small world! Blessings on your dad’s walk!ReplyCancel

    [Reply]

  • Stephanie Lane - This comment has been removed by the author.ReplyCancel

    [Reply]

« PREVIOUS NEXT »