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Wow. How can it be Friday already? I am still recovering from my craft weekend, Joel and I are both fighting bad colds, and poor Levi has his first ear infections. We are still plugging away at our 25 day challenge. Some nights it has been with very sleepy eyes and lots of coughing that we read our advent book together, but we are trying really hard to keep our commitment. And we don’t just want to put a check in the box for the day, but really prepare our hearts for Christmas and all that it means. Doesn’t it usually happen that when you make a commitment to deepen your walk with the Lord all sorts of things start pressing for your attention? We are trying to stay focused here at the Macs. This post is a little late, but I thought you might want to see what our little guy is up to at eleven months.

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Levi, how did you get to be eleven months old already?

You are doing so many things at eleven months I don’t even know where to start…

You stand on your own, but plop right back down when we try to get you to take a step. Someday soon you will get brave and start running circles around your mama.

You love to eat. You are eating mostly on your own and you will eat anything. I can hardly put food on your tray fast enough. At this rate I am going to be in trouble when you are a teenager.

You are into everything. Nothing is safe. You love opening and closing cupboards, playing in the pantry, trying to sneak into the bathroom if I forget to close the door, and you figured out how to crawl down the step into the mudroom. I know if the house is quiet that you are probably getting into something you shouldn’t be. I guess that is why the pediatrician told me to make sure the house is childproof.

You are still saying mama and dada…mostly dada of course. You love to wave, give high fives, show how big you are, and play peek-a-boo. After performing all of those tricks you love to clap for yourself, but you love it even more when people clap for you. You talk to people when we are out and about. You make friends wherever we go.

You are all boy. You play with cars and tractors. When we ask you where your tractor is you crawl over to it. You love to be outside. Too bad it is winter and getting too cold to be out much. You are not afraid to get dirty and you make a lot of noise. I love that you are so different than your sister.

Pretty soon we are going to be celebrating your first birthday, you will get to turn around in your car seat, and you will take off walking. I don’t know how time is going so fast, but I am so thankful for everyday that I get to spend with you.

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  • Toni :O) - He is just absolutely scrumptious! Hope you are all on the mend soon and Happy Eleven Months to your sweet boy!ReplyCancel

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  • Sadie - Happy 11 months Levi! He’s so cute! Love the photo of him getting into the pantry! I sooooo understand the meaning of when the house is quiet, he’s into something!ReplyCancel

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  • The Schilling's from Cimarron - He is SOOOOOOO cute! Time is flying by! :)Happy Holidays…. as always I am behind and will send a New Years card! Give everyone hugs!

    Love ya!

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  • Tara - oh, he is precious!ReplyCancel

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  • Brooke - What a big boy! He sounds like so much fun. My little guy is almost 13 months, and still not walking. 🙂 They are a blast though. I know you don’t know me and I don’t mean to sound like I know everything, but I couldn’t help but notice you are planning on turning him forward facing at 1. I have read so much about car seat safety and they are really suggesting keeping them rear facing as long as possible, up to 40lbs (depending on your car seat). My little guy will be rear facing at least until 2. Not judging you at all if you choose to turn him around but maybe read into it a little and consider keeping him rear for a while longer. There, sorry! I am done. I just like to spread the word because lots of people don’t know how much safer it is. Levi is such a cute guy!!ReplyCancel

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  • Vicki - I have been following your blog for a while now. I’ve never posted on it, but after reading your post on Levi being 11 months old I must say he is just the cutest darn thing. With what you’ve gone through I know that I can get through anything. Thanks for allowing us to read your blog.ReplyCancel

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  • Claudia - Happy 11 months to a precious little boy – ok not so little obviously –ReplyCancel

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  • Amanda - I think your baby boy is so adorable. Happy 11 months to Levi! I also have an 11 month old little girl and a 3 year old son. I hope you have a blessed Christmas and a wonderful new year. I really enjoy reading your blog and enjoy your insight on life.ReplyCancel

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  • Anonymous - Sounds like my son who’s a few months ahead of Levi…all “boy” and I love it. You’re definitely going to have your hands full when he’s walking.

    I agree with a previous poster about the car seat dilemma. There’s a lot of information out there and updated recommendations and such. After reading more about it and the “anatomical” reasons it’s safer to keep a little one rear-facing, my daughter stayed that way until she was almost three. Just wanted to be sure you knew the “one year and 20 pounds” standard (that was the rule when my daughter was an infant/toddler) is outdated now, though plenty of people still use it.ReplyCancel

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  • Anonymous - I agree with the other comments about the car seat. I kept Caleb rear facing until he was 18 months. I wanted to keep him rear facing longer, but he was too stinkin tall. Anyway, I know it’s fun to have them facing to where you can see them, but like the other posters have said, it’s dangerous. He really is such a beautiful boy. Loves to you!ReplyCancel

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  • Anonymous - I should have known that others would have posted about this already, but to repeat them, the new recommendation is to keep them rear facing as long as possible.

    Here’s some info:
    http://www.cpsafety.com/articles/StayRearFacing.aspxReplyCancel

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  • Eryn - I first saw your blog when it was featured on Julie’s blog to help sweet Cora and have been following since then.

    Levi is probably one of the cutest babies I have ever seen! I can’t get enough of those cheeks, I don’t know how you can even go one second without kissing them. 😉ReplyCancel

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  • Carla - He’s so cute, looks full of fun 🙂
    Just on the rearfacing issue, i thought I’d throw in my tuppence worth…I also kept my little girl (who is very tall) rearfacing…she’s about 30lb now and is still rearfacing, I’m hoping to keep her so for the next 12 months. It’s just so much safer and when theyve never been turned around, they know no different! We have a mirror on the back seat which means I can see her and her brother while driving 🙂
    Hope you’re feeling better soon!ReplyCancel

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  • Sara - I’ve read your blog for awhile but haven’t commented until now. Levi is adorable and I just have to ask where you got that adorable motorcycle shirt from. My son would LOVE that!ReplyCancel

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  • Miss G - Is he eating lasagna? My little guy is loving lasagna right now! KellyReplyCancel

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  • TimandCeri - SOOOOOOOO Cute! I can not believe he will almost be one! Such a boy too! Now about turing him around forward facing it’s a hard topic, but as I tell strangers and I feel like I “know” you so here it goes. First no one is judging you just educating you we mom’s have to help each other out! I 2nd 8th, 10th about the rear facing thing and am glad others spoke up. I kept my son rear facing past 2. I only turned him around when he kept complaining about his “boy” parts hurting and grabbing himself down there. It turns out as their legs get longer and they push against the back of the seat it pulls the straps tighter and pushes on the buckle (things mom’s of boys deal with)…. I wish I had been able to do it longer as our car seat goes to 40 lbs and he is only 32 lbs but I couldn’t do that to him every day. No one will judge you if you do decide to turn him around but I bet if you took some time to read why it’s safer you might just change your mind. And once you decide what your going to do, stick to your guns about it. (People always questioned me as to why he was still rear facing and I was always defending myself)

    On the topic of car seat safety remember to, no bulky jackets. If the car seat is put to test, blankets are for the best. That’s a hard one in the winter time, but use this as a test. Put them in their seat with no jacket tighten the straps. Take them out put the jacket on and put them back in the seat. If you have to loosen the straps to get him buckled then the jacket is too bulky. You can read more about no coats in the car seat here:
    http://babyproducts.about.com/od/carseats/a/carseatcoat.htm?p=1ReplyCancel

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  • Lexie Loo & Dylan Too - I can’t believe he’s already 11 months! What a cute little guy!ReplyCancel

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  • Rebecca - WOW! No comments yet. Congratulations to Tabitha and Happy 2 weeks and 2 days before Christmas to you Joel and Levi.ReplyCancel

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Today Levi is eleven months and three days old.
The same age Cora was when she went to be with Jesus.

Eleven months and three days usually isn’t a significant milestone in a child’s life, but for us it is. Today we celebrate Levi’s life. We know that every day with him is such a gift. We have anticipated this day for a long time, wondering what it would be like when Levi passed his big sister in age.

Today means that all of a sudden Levi becomes older than our last memories of Cora. That is so hard for me to accept since in my mind Cora will always be the “big” sister.

Today means that every milestone Levi reaches from now on we didn’t get to celebrate with his sister. From now on there will be no more comparisons between what Levi is doing and what Cora did.

Today means that we are passing the familiar stage of parenting and entering a stage where we feel like new parents again. We have only been parents to babies.

Today is a reminder of the day we were forced to say goodbye to our sweet baby girl. Thinking of what happened that day is almost unbearable.

Today Cora would have been two years and nine months old…exactly. I can hardly even imagine what Cora would have been like as an almost three year old.

This afternoon I came home to my boys after a weekend of being away with some girlfriends. I needed to get away and it was so encouraging to spend time with my friends, but it was hard for me to leave Levi. As I anticipated the significance of today I couldn’t help but be reminded of the pain I felt when we said goodbye to Cora on the day when she too was eleven months and three days old. Today brought back a flood of emotions. The last time Joel and I drove home when we had a baby this age we couldn’t even go home. We didn’t know how to face an empty house or how we were even going to make it through the next day. I can’t even describe to you what it was like to come home today to my sweet baby boy. I missed him (and Joel too) so much while I was gone. What a joy to see his sweet smiling face and kicking legs when he realized I was back. This evening we just spent time hanging out together. It was so great. And you better believe that Mr. Levi got smothered with a few extra hugs from his mama.

There are a lot of things that were hard about today, but today is also a reminder of God’s sufficient grace. Today is a reminder that the same grace God has given us to move forward since loosing Cora, the same grace that God has given us as we raise Levi, is the same grace He will continue to give us as Levi moves past this eleven months and three days milestone. God’s grace is sufficient. His grace is all we need for today and for whatever we face in the days to come. What a great reminder that when we rely on God’s sufficient grace instead of relying on our own strength, He will give us the strength to face today.

Let the morning bring me word of your unfailing love, for I have put my trust in you. Show me the way I should go, for to you I lift up my soul.
Psalm 143:8
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  • GabbyRM - Your faith is an inspiration. God bless you and your family. May he continue to give you strength through this difficult milestone.ReplyCancel

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  • Tiffany - I’ve been following your blog for over a year now, and I think i’ve commented a few times. Cora and my Sammy were born on the same day. Your story is so touching to me. Thank you for allowing others to follow your journey.ReplyCancel

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  • Vera - You have been in my prayers since I learned about your blog when Cora was sick, and I am sending extra prayers your way on this difficult day. Your faith is so inspirational. Thank you for sharing your heart and your babies with us.ReplyCancel

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  • Kylie and crew. - Oh Jess, what a painful day. Truly you have lived a “parents worst nightmare” and as you have lived it, and allowed us to watch….I know you have changed lives. I wish I could have known Cora. I wish that you still had her, but I’m so, so, thankful for Heaven and the eternal perspective. Thanks again for being raw…you are an amazing women and Mama.ReplyCancel

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  • Stef - … weeping as I ache for you.
    I was wondering when this day was. Realized it was soon since you said he was 11 months old.
    I’ve been lifting you up in prayer. You are right… God’s grace IS sufficient. In all things. Every situation.

    Praise the Lord, for using Cora’s life to bring glory to His great Name! I am eager to meet your sweet girl someday.ReplyCancel

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  • Wendy - And tomorrow you shall wake to a new day…God bless the journey ahead.ReplyCancel

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  • Mum2twopreciousgifts - Jess

    I have been Blessed to follow your journey since prayers were asked for Cora just after her diagnosis.

    I am often incredibly moved by your posts. I often just sit and reflect and pray thanks after I have read them.

    You write so beautifully ALL the time. But today’s post was one of your most special yet.

    God Bless you, Joel, Cora and Levi.ReplyCancel

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  • ~Rachel - You are amazing! I can’t even imagine what sadness today can bring but you choose to look on the positive of what that yummy little boy brings you. Stay strong today girl and know that many of us are praying for peace for you and your family today {and always.}ReplyCancel

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  • Trina S. - thank you for always sharing Cora with us!

    trina
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  • ej236 - You don’t know me. I found your blog through some friends and I lived in the same dorm as you at KSU. I just wanted to let you know that you are such a strong lady and are such an inspiration to everyone. I have a 19 month old and some days I just get so frustrated with things, but step back and think how lucky I am to have her. Thank you for sharing your story, you have touched so many and are truly a blessing. Stay strong through these days. I can not say I can relate but I will be thinking of you. God Bless You!ReplyCancel

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  • Nancy - You are amazing & I cry when I read your story, but I always rejoice in the faith that you have & you make me want to learn more & more about Jesus. So glad your weekend away brought you home to two precious people in your life!ReplyCancel

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  • Whitney - Beautiful. I love how you write–so raw and honest. I have read your blog since Cora was sick, and you amaze me with your faith. Thank you for sharing it all with us.ReplyCancel

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  • Lindsey - you are such a special person. there such beautiful times to look forward to with your little boy. you inspire me with every post. thank you.ReplyCancel

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  • ems - Sending up extra prayers for you today – you know Bethany and Cora are so close in age . . . often makes me cry reading your blog to think about all the “what ifs”. I am continually encouraged by your steadfast faith!ReplyCancel

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  • Lindsay - Thank you for sharing your heart, and pouring out your thoughts in your post. It’s got to be so difficult, but I’m sending prayers your way, and wanted you to know how much of an inspiration you are to me. Your faith is incredible, and you lead by example. Thank you! Thinking you your family today.ReplyCancel

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  • AshleyAnn - Sweet friend I am praying for you and your family…thank you for sharing this.ReplyCancel

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  • I'm Sadie - You are an amazing mother. I will be praying for some more healing. You are exactly correct- His grace is enough! (((HUGS)))ReplyCancel

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  • Chelsy - I’ve been following for a little while now, but you don’t know me. I have tears in my eyes. My heart aches for you. Can’t even imagine the pain. Praying for you and the journey ahead. That little Levi is just precious.ReplyCancel

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  • Danise - May God be with you today and always!ReplyCancel

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  • meg duerksen - that was a big day.
    my heart aches for you and your pain jess.
    no one can even begin to imagine what you feel.
    you are a beautiful example to everyone of trusting in the one true God.
    last week in BSF during our lecture she mentioned Job. She said after all he experienced he said “i used to HEAR of you and now i KNOW you” i thought of you. and how you probably feel that way.
    (job 42:5-6)ReplyCancel

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  • Tara - Extra prayers for you & Joel today! You are an amazingly strong woman and mama and your words are always just right! You are constantly making me evaluate my perspectives. Thanks for sharing your heart! And that little Levi is just stinkin’ adorable … just in case you don’t hear that enough! 😉ReplyCancel

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  • The Morris Family - 3 years, 4 months and 10 days was that milestone for us….Joel. When Mercy, who is our daughter under Joel turned that age, last year, lots of pictures, and just holding her trying to “feel” that age again as when I held Joel at that age.You are so right, grace is what continues to carry us. Today Dec. 6th, is the day four years ago that Joel(age3) was diagnosed with neuroblastoma, like your Cora. He went to be with Jesus 1/23/07.

    May our hearts cling to Him as we anticipate our reunion with our children one day!!

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  • Lindsay - I’m saying extra prayers for your family. I know your sweet Cora is watching in heaven and cheering on her little brother as he continues to grow and thrive. God bless you all.ReplyCancel

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  • Erin - Such a beautiful post…ReplyCancel

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  • Townsend Crew - YOU are AMAZING! Your faith and journey are a blessing to me. Thank you for this gift.ReplyCancel

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  • Marsha - Praying with you!

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  • Tricia - I will be saying an extra prayer for you, Jess and Joel as well as Levi on this special day.
    Thank you for continuing to share your journey with us.

    With love and prayers,
    xo*triciaReplyCancel

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  • Gaaa - Jess, you and Joel have been in my prayers since I learned about your blog when Cora was hospitalized.Your faith has taught me to be both a more faithful person, and to be more open, too.

    Your family remains in my prayers. Thank you for sharing them with us!ReplyCancel

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  • Carla - Like so many of your posts, this has stayed with me all day since I read it early this morning. Such a difficult painful time and yet so full of hope for the future. I can’t tell you how many ways your story, and how you tell it has changed me. As Vera said, thank you for sharing your heart.ReplyCancel

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  • Anonymous - Oh Jess! We are always praying for you guys! Lots of love to you! AndiReplyCancel

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  • Vanessa - I had been thinking of you and your family as I knew this date was approaching. My daughter and Cora are just 2 days apart in age. Your strength and faith have been such an inspiration. Continuing to pray for you and it is an absolute joy watching little Levi grow up.ReplyCancel

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  • songskatesang - Dearest Jess, You are in my thoughts and prayers. You are loved. Thank you so much for that verse. It is absolutely perfect.ReplyCancel

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  • The Schilling's from Cimarron - Jess,

    ahhhh of course when I read this I cried! I still remember those days of seeing you at the hospital and seeing sweet baby Cora. I remember when we were leaving the hospital with our Jaylee it was a bittersweet day for us. So happy yet we did NOT want to leave you all! I am so glad you have Levi to hold on to now. I know Cora is watching over him every minute! Love you always and thank you for once again sharing your memories and faithfulness to the Lord! You are a true blessing to me! Give the boys a hug for us! 🙂

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  • ashley - Beautiful post. Thank you for the reminder that God’s grace is sufficient. I think about Cora often and keep your family in my prayers.ReplyCancel

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  • Andy and Jenni - I’m not sure why I don’t comment more often – your posts often resonate with me. Although our daughter is still with us, we know that she won’t be for long. Her little brother has already surpassed her development, and it does make us feel like new parents, too. I find promise, and solace, in your words and in your faith.ReplyCancel

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  • lil misses' mama - oh, jess. praying for you lots this week.ReplyCancel

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  • The Hopkins Home - {{{hugs}}} That was beautifully written – you remind me everyday of how to walk in faith and trust in that sufficient grace of His – thank you!ReplyCancel

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  • katherine - I wondered when this day was. I can imagine how every milestone will be bittersweet and pray that God’s grace sustains you. The faith He has given you is such a gift.ReplyCancel

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  • Marla Taviano - Crying with you, for you. And praying for you today too as you miss your beautiful little girl and ease into a new place. Love and hugs!!ReplyCancel

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  • Anonymous - you simply amaze me.

    Prayers, prayers, prayers.ReplyCancel

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  • Beki - TheRustedChain - That is a day I’ll never forget. I remember the text that came in on my husband’s phone and then bawling for hours and hours.

    You are so very loved, by people you know, people you don’t, and most importantly by God.ReplyCancel

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  • Anonymous - Jess,
    I love you and I don’t even know you! You continue to be a blessing to me through your story and are constantly challenging me to deepen my walk with God. I am praying for you as you begin another chapter of losing your baby girl and being an amazing mommy to Levi.
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  • Bambi - (((hugs))) to you Jess and to Joel and Levi too.ReplyCancel

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  • Krystal - Not to diminish or in any way negate your love, parenting, missing, etc. of Cora, I just wanted to say that I often feel like a new mom with my kids when new situations arise. I frequently have to go to God for help on what to do. Both kids are very different, and they sure don’t come with manuals, as you know.

    Anywho… I’m praying for you, for your parenting of Levi, and for your hearts missing Cora.

    Hugs in Christ,ReplyCancel

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  • Angie - Thank you for the reminder that HE is enough. You have been such a blessing to me. I continue to pray for you and your sweet family.ReplyCancel

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  • Mommy2QTPies - What a beautiful post. Long time reader, but hardly ever comment. This one brought me to tears. You are amazing and such an inspiration to all!ReplyCancel

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  • Aimee - Your words are so full of beauty and love for Christ. Once again I can only say thank you for sharing your story with those of us whom you have never even met.
    As a side note, Grayson, who you added to be prayed for on your sidebar…He turned three years old this December the 5th. Thank you so much for your prayers, we are seeing a miracle in the making in his sweet life.
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  • Jennifer - Aww honey, you will make it through this day. It usually takes me a few days to really get over that milestone day. For us it is 6 months, 2 weeks, and 6 days that is hard. And every time one of my babies hits that day, I always think about what if that was it? What if that was all the time I got with them. It just breaks my heart. I hold onto them tighter and take more pictures… Hang in there mama.ReplyCancel

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  • Toni :O) - May the memories of her joyful smile and spunky spirit help guide you through these difficult days. I pray for your family all the time, you are always close in my thoughts. Merry Christmas and hope you have so much fun for Levi’s first Christmas! God bless!ReplyCancel

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  • Tammie - I have followed your blog since about a week after Cora got sick and I have cried many times reading your stories, but I want to thank you for them. It is good to be reminded that every day is a gift from god and we need to appreciate our days and never take them for granted. I always have extra hugs and kisses for my babies after thinking of loosing them and I pray for you often.ReplyCancel

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  • Beth - praying for you! thank you for sharing your heart with us– God is so evident in your story.ReplyCancel

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  • Claudia - I was thinking about you and Christmas time the other day, isn’t weird how we think of people we’ve actually never met but through a blog we feel like you are a part in our lives – and that’s what Cora’s life has done for so many (I know you wish it was different, that you rather hold her and have her instead of inspiring people as you pour your heart in this blog …) her short life has inspired so many that are hurting, so many that have gone through the same loss than you, I’ll say a special pray for you today and through out this season.

    The other day I was present when a dear lady gave her life to Christ, her baby was 40 weeks when they realized she was gone, last Friday this lady gave her life to Christ and can now be reunited with her baby girl one day … so many stories of pain and yet so many stories of hope.

    Your Levi is a ham and I’m sure you gave him extra hugs yesterday, today and tomorrow …

    You’re a wonderful woman and I loooove reading your blog.

    Merry Christmas to you and your sweet family, here and in heaven!ReplyCancel

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  • Don, Aimee, Kaitlyn and Kysen - From a mother to a mother….you are such an inspiration and a breath of fresh air! God bless you as you continue on your journey with your little guy! They are sooo fun! I have a 4 year old little guy and each day is a new adventure! I will pray for your daily as you learn how to be a parent to Levi!ReplyCancel

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  • Robin in Benton - I’ve been reading your blog since a prayer request that I received when Cora was ill. I remembering crying for you and your family the day that she went to be with Jesus. And today I’m smiling in my heart for you – for your faith and the way that God has allowed Cora and your family to touch the lives of so many people – and for that sweet little guy that you come home to now. Blessings to all of you…ReplyCancel

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  • The Mershawn's - It’s so hard being a parent…
    You make us all miss that sweet girl, even though most of us never knew her. So grateful you have Levi to watch grow & to keep you BUSY. But I can only imagine how unbearable it must feel so many times watching him grow without her. Yuck. But God’s strength IS perfect & will surely get you through. Praying LOTS of it your & Joel’s way!ReplyCancel

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  • The Hensley Family - I follow your blog weekly and have wanted to comment so many times. I am the mom of 2. My oldest, Emma is almost exactly the same age as Cora and I also have a 15 month old son, Chase. I cannot imagine the pain your family has endured. I have felt loss – but the thought of not being able to bring either of my babies home is unbearable. I’m am Moved everyday by your strength. You are one of the most Amazing women I have ever met (at least I feel like I know you!). I just wanted to say Thank you for sharing your story with us. It has given me new respect for how fragile life is and how Amazing my children – and all children are.

    I can’t imagine how you do it – but please keep sharing. You are an inspiration. Cora and Levi are so lucky to have a Wonderful mom who loves them both – and she will always be with you. Someday you will all be together – but until then – know that all our prayers are with you and that you are giving so much to so many other moms by sharing your story and your strength in life.

    God Bless!

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  • Nan - I’m not sure if it was a typo or a purposeful spelling, but you wrote “loosing Cora.” It struck me that “loosing” Cora is just what you have done, even more so than losing her. You have “loosed” her into the arms of Her heavenly Father and you have said, “Lord, use her — even now in my sorrow and grief. Use the precious life of our little girl that we so clung to. She is and always was yours. Make her glorify you.”

    And He is doing just that.

    Keeping you in my prayers whenever I think about you.ReplyCancel

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  • Melissa Joy - This post was beautiful and passionate and remarkable.
    Much love to you, and prayers.ReplyCancel

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  • Al's World - You are truly an inspiration to us all. You are truly a living example of where there is destruction, there is also hope. You and Joel are living examples of how even through the valleys, God is there, that His hand is upon us at all times, thank you from the bottom of my soul for not giving in to the doom of what your life could have been, but for always focusing on the light even when it is hard. Because I have been trying to not give into the doom after I lost my mom, and you always steer me back to where I sould be, focused on Christ. Your life is an inspiration. Thank you!ReplyCancel

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  • Andrea - Thank you for this post. It was exactly what I needed to hear today – one in which the exhaustion of keeping up with a very active 18 mo. old (plus his three older sibs) was catching up with me and I was entering “complain mode.” I have continued to think and pray for you as you approached these anniversary dates of Cora’s life. It gladdens the heart to see Levi’s pictures and read about his milestones and how God continues to encourage you through these tough times.ReplyCancel

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  • TDM Wendy - “There are a lot of things that were hard about today, but today is also a reminder of God’s sufficient grace. Today is a reminder that the same grace God has given us to move forward since loosing Cora, the same grace that God has given us as we raise Levi, is the same grace He will continue to give us as Levi moves past this eleven months and three days milestone.”
    Love that. Love that. Love that. Our daughter Faith would have been 8 years old yesterday! Wow. God has brought us a long way and blessed us greatly. And now Cora and Faith are partying in heaven.ReplyCancel

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  • reaching eleven months & three days » The Macs - […] And in many ways I’ve felt stuck in a “sorrow slump”. I remember grieving as Levi reached this eleven month and three days milestone…but it was different. With Levi I was grieving my oldest not being the oldest anymore. I was […]ReplyCancel

Do you have your Advent calendars ready to go? Today is the day to start. I loved reading all the comments about your Advent calendars and traditions. You had some great ideas. I may have to steal some of them.

I decided not to make an Advent calendar this year since Levi is so little, but I am bookmarking lots of ideas for next year. This year Joel and I decided to focus more on preparing our own hearts for Christmas and including Levi in that as much as we can.

When I saw that Nancy Guthrie had a book of Advent readings I had to order it. You have probably figured out by now that she has become one of my favorite authors. Nancy has such a passion for God’s Word and I can’t wait to read this collection she put together.

I have found in my own life that I’ve too often allowed Christmas to “sneak up on me.” I’ve allowed the busyness of purchasing presents and planning travel and participating in Christmas pageants and parties to crowd out a quiet anticipation of the wonder of incarnation. Too many Christmas mornings I’ve realized that while my presents were wrapped, my heart was completely unprepared to truly take in the Gift.
 – Nancy Guthrie
I can totally relate to that. Can you? So often December becomes too busy and too stressful and I fail to prepare my heart and truly celebrate Jesus. Christmas comes and goes and I hardly focus on Him at all. Joel and I want this year to be different. So, along with reading this book we decided to hold each other accountable with a little Christmas challenge.
       
For the next 25 days Joel and I are committing to prepare our hearts for Christmas. For us that means being in the Word every single day…even on days that are crazy and busy because of the holidays. I am really excited about doing this with Joel and now you can keep us accountable too! 
If you are needing a Christmas challenge of your own, we would love for you to join us. If you haven’t ever established a regular quiet time with God, what better time than now?
But Mary treasured up all these things,
pondering them in her heart.
Luke 2:19

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  • Holli Taylor - That actually sounds like not only a neat challenge but also a cool idea for a 15 min date with each other every night(at least thats all we could get at my house which is more than we get now!).ReplyCancel

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  • KK - I’m going to run out to the local Christian bookstore today to see if I can find the Advent book you mentioned. I’m always searching for a way to remain Christ centered during the hustle & bustle of the holiday season.ReplyCancel

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  • nichole - How encouraging it is to me each time I read your blog. You are so real and make yourself so transparent to everyone around you and those of us who read your blog! I can totally relate to this particular most. It’s so easy to get caught up in the hustle & bustle of Christmas. I really think it saddens the heart of Jesus and grieves His spirit when we leave Him out! I have 3 little ones ages 6-19 months and I feel so strongly that this is the year to make sure they really see Christ in Christmas! I am going to join you and Joel on this challenge and I’m excited! Thank you for this awesome post!ReplyCancel

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  • Carisa - That book sounds like a fantastic idea. Can’t wait to see if our bookstore has it. THANKS for the idea!ReplyCancel

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  • Katie - Our church has encouraged us to do a reading plan for the month of December and it is titled “Rediscovering the Christmas Season”. I am so excited to be in the word everyday in anticipation of our Savior’s birthday. If anyone is interested, the reading plan can be found at youversion.com!ReplyCancel

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  • Amanda - we’re in!ReplyCancel

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  • Stacey - I was going to leave a similar comment to Katie – youversion.com has a Bible reading plan set up for the Advent season. My husband and I started yesterday!ReplyCancel

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  • Megan - I have heard amazing things about this Advent book! Let us know how it is!

    I am sure this has already been recommended to you but in case it hasn’t, Treasuring God in Our Traditions by Noel Piper is an amazing book to read when you are thinking through and planning what traditions you want to do as a family.ReplyCancel

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  • Shyla - Thanks for your post! I ordered the book and can’t wait to read it!
    My kids are 4, 3, 1.5 and due in Feb! 🙂 We want our kids to know Christ. We want them to know why we celebrate Christmas – it’s not about STUFF! I can’t wait to read it! Thanks for sharing and for the challenge!
    Have you read “Treasuring God in our Traditions” by Noel Piper? I am using that this year with forming how we celebrate with our kids!ReplyCancel

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  • KT - Have you seen the Christmas Family Advent book she has written “Let every heart prepare him room”. We started it yesterday. It may be some years before you could use it with Levi but it is still such a treasure.ReplyCancel

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  • Anonymous - I love the challenge and I am going to start today! A neat activity to help prepare kids is the book What God Wants for Christmas. It is a poem book and comes with 7 little gifts they open and reuse. You open a present every day and on the 7th day is the gift God wants. It is not only a book but a little nativity scene that the kids can put together. Very neat book and activity to help kids think about God in the giving season. Look on Christianbook.comReplyCancel

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  • Mindy M. Harris - a true delight to see you today. thank you for your testimony and for urging all of us to continue our love relationship with the Savior.
    when one things about it, the King of Kings in a stinky barn, as a wee one relying on his mum for sustenance…
    well, it leaves one speechless and we’ve nothing more, we KNOW nothing more, than to bow at His feet.
    blessings to you guys.ReplyCancel

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